​Why You Are Not Married Yet???

Oftentimes, acquaintances, friends,  co-workers, relatives, & church mates asked me of why I am not yet married. I always heared them said that I passed the age of child bearing and I will have a hard time giving birth. Other’s doubted of the sincerity of my boyfriend towards me. “Maybe your boyfriend is not so into you” they said. Some spiritual bullies will say that by the time I will have kids, groceries must be too high and tuition fees must be too hard to afford. There are also those who said that we must be so down and too poor to afford for a wedding. Well, so many opinions here, there, and everywhere.  Thankfully, over the years, I learn that respecting one’s opinion is a virtue (hahaha).
Here are probably the reasons why:
1) I became a teenager in my thirties. I went through a lot in life that I needed so much emotional healing only the Lord can perform. All I needed is a love from a Father In Heaven but working in the church allowed me to experience an earthly father’s love from my Pastors, and from the fathers in the church. I realized that there a great fathers who existed as well as great men who loves the Lord. 

2) My boyfriend is way younger than I am that when I was graduating in high school, he was still in grade 1. The Holy Spirit must have worked in my heart to guard me and helped me from saying no to the wrong person so I could say yes to the special man whom He had prepared for me. There were times that I cried my heart to sleep while confessing what He has put in my heart that “God Has Prepared Someone Special For Me” and I always answer that when people teased me of having no boyfriend when I landed in my 30’s. 
3) I still want to enjoy a teenage life of being in a relationship because I never experienced what it meant to be a teenager due to the fact that my mother died when I was 10 and I’m guessing that I became a very mean instant mom then. To be a mother way too early for a job you don’t know while also have no knowledge of God was too difficult. How I prayed that my brother and sisters will grow up and will have the best in life and I dreamed of breathing from being an instant mom. Thankfully, they all did and are growing in the Lord and I am also enjoying my single life. Thank you Jesus💗

4) I am still learning how to be a woman in Christ. I long wanted to become a wife. In fact when my uncle asked me what I really wanted, I answered, to become a Godly wife who brings her children to church and who will support her husband. My goodness, I don’t even know why I desired that in my teens. Oh how I prayed that my husband will not be a seaman or someone working overseas because of my sincere desire to become a Godly wife. 

5) We are still working in our finances. No, I don’t want a big wedding but I also don’t want to be stressed out with our finances. A little savings in the bank and hopefully future businesses and investments is a big help. Thank you Jesus. I’ve seen how money stressed my mother way back. How she cried in the night. How she became deaf because her food was given to all of us. And how she became mentally ill because of too much worries and anxiety. This is why I wanted all of us to become a good steward with our finances. 

6) I need to know first how to be a Godly wife.  I need mentorship. I need to see good examples of marriages founded by His truth.  Thank God for bringing to me Christian Ladies whom I can see as growing in the Lord while having a deep respect and love to their husbands. 

So while we had our Bible Study, Ter Yan surprisingly gave me and Ter Anne this book. I’ve seen this book way back then but I was not interested. I read and I was attacked with panic and depression (hahaha). The author is so sweet. My Bible Ladies are so gentle and kind.  I can’t be this woman. I realized that my heart needs cleansing of His Word so that it will submit to what He said, not to what I feel. 

I pray that marriages are strengthened by your relationship in Christ and may the single ladies out there will have to learn to wait for the person whom God has for them. For the time being, enjoy Jesus and His direction for your life. 
Have A Lovely Day💗💗💗

Bringing  A Tumbler Saves Money

Often times when I am leaving home and go somewhere  either to do groceries, attend a Bible Study, Conduct some Counseling, Going to church, and etc., I spent money for water. While it’s not too expensive but drinking 5 bottles a day accumulated in a week and a month is already a big amount if we come to think about it. That amount can be added to savings or grocery if finances is thought of properly.

That’s why I bring my one  year old tumbler with me all the time.

I filled this at home and when it’s consumed, I look for drinking stations where I could have this refilled for free. And I also make sure that I drink a lot before leaving. In that case, I am saving money. 

Just a simple tip so we could all be a good steward with our finances.

That’s for #ChilisMoneyTip

DON’T LOOK GOOD BROKE

When I was still working in the religious organization,  I was labeled as PASTORA FASHION because of how I dressed up, how I applied make up and of how I accessorized myself.  I also believe that presenting ourselves the best that we can isn’t bad provided that we did it moderately and it will not lead us into debt. 

Today, I still have two pouches of Make Up. I check and notice that there are still a lot that I don’t use and some really needs to be thrown away. 

These are my make up pouches. On the left was given to me by Ter Anne when she and her hubby went to Japan.  On the right was the pouch I purchased two years ago. I loved the design so I bought it out of impulse and not really out of need.

The following are my make up essentials after decluttering:

I keep this for my lips that cracks sometimes but since drinking a lot of water these days has been my habit, it has not recur anymore but I still use this when I am at home. I also apply this on my skin when I get burned out cooking and the oil spills out to my skin. 

I don’t apply day cream but my partner discovered this and it suits me perfectly well. He bought another one for me when were in Pagadian because he thought that the first day cream that he purchased was left in Cebu. That’s what it makes it two.

One night my partner brought his co-workers catalogue from AVON and he asked me to choose whatever I like and I chose this. I love this blush on. It melts on my face and I don’t look like Santa Claus. It comes out naturally on my skin as well.

We saw this at Watsons and the waterproof label  sold me out plus it was on sale. Then I was sweating under the heat of the sun and it melted. It was water proof amd not sweat proof (hahaha). But I will use this until I can consume everything to not waste money.

I got this last year and my lips will only go for Revlon lipstick. It’s quite expensive though but I can save for no allergies plus I got it in 50% sale. I guess, I can still use this for another year.

It has been with me since last year. It is still sharp and I am loving it.

I bought this because I like the picture, it’s so chic but it’s also natural when applied on my face. I purchased this two years ago but I am keeping it for the mirror. I don’t need to buy another mirror but I can save extra for not buying one unless of course if it is going to be broken. Hopefully, not in 10 years (hahaha).

I save this when I go to fast food restaurants and the line is long for handwash. It is still full because I made use of the wash area when we eat outside. But since I am still staying at home, I go for soap and water.

Pepsodent was not my toothpaste then. But I noticed that it’s a lot cheaper.  I only got this for P10.00 while the other toothpaste on this size cost P27.00 to P30.00. I saved money by shopping wisely even for toothpaste.

This pouch is to be given away along with some other make up that I don’t really use. 

And this is my only make up pouch left after tons and tons of make up. 

Some were thrown away because it’s no longer of good use and it will not add value in someone else’s life.

This is still in my pouch even if it has been fully consumed because this was a beautiful gift from my sister from Australia. No more perfume. The smells gone but I so love the color and the design. This reminds me of the love of family, generosity, and the importance of people. This is my thank you perfume. Everytime I see this beauty, I give thanks.

As I am thinking about this, it brings me to Psalm 139:13-17 ESV

13 For you have formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows very well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. 16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.  17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them.

So ladies and gentlemen, you are not your make up essentials. You were loved, valued, and cherished by God Himself even before the world sees you. Way before the ULTRASOUND had been invented, you were cared for by a LOVING FATHER IN HEAVEN. You were naked then but His thoughts for you were precious.

It’s not wrong to have make up but don’t ruin your budget just so you will fit on the image the world of instagram or social media presented to you. Don’t let it be your life pursuit. Start considering what adds value to your life and be content by the love of God through Jesus Christ. 

Now, if you are a make up artist, then buy tons of make up please. That’s business but at the same time that’s your outlet of your creativity. You earn from it and that’s good.

BUT DON’T LOOK GOOD BROKE. Yes, others are so impressed by your appearance but you are deceiving yourself because when you go home and remove all your make up, you are so stressed out of where to borrow money to pay for your kids tuition or how to pay rent because you are so busy impressing the people you don’t know and much more you don’t like. 

Just love you. Do you. Enjoy you and shine in the best you.

Remember, you are lovely even sans make up. 
Have a lovely day💗

My Realization Over A Cup Of Coffee

I woke up super excited to drink my coffee at our unfinished terrace with my Bible, planner & colorful pens. Every sip is oh so breath taking as I was looking over the greenery of trees and the calming effect of the breezing wind.

This is really me every day. No make up on with my favorite very old short & shirt but with a fresh perspective on life. I have no plans of buying new house clothes yet because I still have to discard and give away stuff. 

As I sit down and chill with Jesus I realize that:

I AM A MINIMALIST. I don’t like clutter because it disables me to think and be productive. I realize that I don’t need too much to enjoy life. 

Let’s start at my notebooks, Bible, & pens.  Looking back, I’ve got lots of notebooks which I write down my thoughts but I have this bad habit of not filling it up to the end. I leave it with so many pages left unwritten because I find something new interesting. As a result, I brought the clutter myself and I get irritated by these stuff so I stop journaling instead (hahaha).

For now, I am keeping my thoughts in this beautiful planner given by my best friend (Ter Anne) because I find this to be so pretty. So my schedules, budget ideas, verses to meditate, prayer requests and TO DO’S are all here. With that, I don’t need too many notebooks in my back back which in essence is also very good for my shoulders. 

I also keep this beautiful notebook from Ter Anne again. This was her random act of kindness given during our Bible Study. I am using this for my blog ideas, directions,  and future book who knows? Since I decided to have P50.00 budget internet per month, I can just write everything I have learned in this pretty notebook and post it once a month. I figured that before I will post anything, my content must have been applied and tested by me. I also don’t want people to be impressed by my write ups but I am not doing it myself. So I will have 29 or 30 days to practice my values then I’ll post it once I will have my connection. 

I need post-its when I read my Bible because sometimes I just receive one liner thought from the Holy Spirit so I use this. This was my gift from my partner when he went to Hongkong. Sometimes, I just stare at this because this just reminds me of how I am so loved and thought of even if he was too far away.

I am saving this for next year God willing. This is so beautiful and a gift from teacher Susie for my birthday this year. I wanted to use it but since I still have my other planner, I wanna use this for my future thoughts and life realizations, God willing. But today as I was reading my Bible, I stared at this and was so inspired by this beauty.

With my other empty notebooks piled up, I will be giving it away to my sister who will be going back to school this June. 

Since I am a follower of Jesus, I want to know Him more and it is only by reading His Word and by listening to the Holy Spirit. I realize that I don’t need too many Bibles for inspiration & most of the time, it is only being displayed on the shelf just to look spiritual. I only need one Bible to read coupled by colorful pens for spiritual feed. So I am keeping this Bible which I purchased 5 years ago. This has been worn out and has so many post its but I heard God in this Book. I am also being corrected as I read it. 

So that’s the start of my minimalism journey. Less is more. With less notebook, and one Bible to read, I can hear Him clearly. I can also save money and I am flying light. As if the weight has been lifted from my shoulders. And it is also very satisfying to fix my gaze at Jesus and to focus my energy on the very thing that He calls me to do instead of what others expected me to do and perform. 

Live Out Your Calling//Do You

I remember standing in the background of our Elementary Campus in between the bermuda grass listening to the silent whisper of my heart. I was thinking of becoming a journalist and I never knew where I got it knowing that we don’t have television to watch. I probably must have gotten it through reading a book. I thought of having my own book published so the next generation specially my children will never go through the mistakes and hardships I have made. I can still recall the yellow pad so filled with my groanings and moanings because I can’t express my heart when I have to say it but oh how I could see my internal wishes when I started to write it down. In that yellow pad, I have written down my frustrations, my hopes, my fears, my anger,  my bitterness, and my secret prayers with so much hope that I could become that girl. It’s just a matter of time. I can still look back with pride over how much I was the school’s pride as I always won for poetry and essay contests here and there and everywhere. 

 Then I was thinking of becoming a lawyer and be the voice of the poor and the oppressed. I can’t always express my thoughts but oh how I love debate so much. I was that girl in the dreamland with so much hope and determination to make it big in life. 

Then I have to go to college and I was told to study education. While I don’t belittle the impact that teachers has for my life, I just felt that the dream slowly died and I was beginning to see the impact of poverty. But as I was thinking about it, it was in that department that I was introduced to Christ, the one who died and resurrected and He is still the one who have resurrected my dreams back to life. 

So here are my practical tips so you can LIVE OUT YOUR CALLING:

1) SEE WHAT YOU ARE VERY GOOD NATURALLY AT DOING & FAN IT TO FLAME. If that’s cooking then don’t wait for a cooking show to cook, start now in your kitchen. If that’s singing then sing everyday even if you can’t record yourself to be uploaded at You Tube, just sing. If that’s teaching, then  probably start sharing your knowledge to your brothers and sisters at home or maybe to your neighbors. If that’s writing, then start a blog and just write. Don’t wait to have a perfect grammar to start. Your greatness isn’t when you have become famous, it is when you have the courage to start. If that’s giving then enjoy your business or excel in your job. If that’s Homemaking then start in your home and make it your best work of art. 

2) REJOICE IN YOUR STRENGTHS AND SHARPEN IT. I know that the easiest thing to pick up from ourselves is to point out our weaknesses and begin to see how terrible we really are. We all have weaknesses but start looking at your strengths. I know that if I’ll visit my brother’s house and if I am not careful, I will feel terrible in comparison to my sister in law’s gift for home making. She excelled at it. It comes naturally at her. She can turn a haunted house into tourist spot. As for me, if I entered a room or a house, I will remodel it and turn it into a library. That’s for sure. So instead of feeling disgusted with myself, I rejoice in someone else’s strengths as I applaud mine. Thankfully today we have so many tutorials from You Tube to sharpen and enhance our strengths. 

3) SURROUND YOURSELF WITH LIKE MINDED PEOPLE. The best way to fan the flame of your gift is to be with people who has the passion to excel at where they are good at. Be with them. Watch them. Observe how they are doing things and start making your own. That’s what I do. I watch people in You Tube who are doing similarly with my interests and pursuits so I could have enough inspiration to pursue mine. I read inspiring blogs that will feed me into becoming who I am suppose to be.

4) BE YOU & DO YOU. There are so many voices suggesting you to become this and that. You better be a teacher because the retirement is quite high. Or you should work in the call center since you are very good in English and the pay is really good. Or you should make your home this way. So on and so forth. I realize that people started to lead us anywhere because they haven’t seen us going somewhere. But thank them anyway and start doing you and being you. You are unique. Your gifts are tailored to fit you. Explore the possibilities and start living. Remember, it is when you really do what you are called to do that you really really live. 

5) ENJOY THE PRESENT. Don’t wait for 20 years to enjoy life. Even if you are just starting right now and it looks like you don’t matter in this big world, ENJOY because you really did matter. And ENJOY NOW. Enjoy doing the very reason of your existence.  It’s never about how much money you have saved although we are called to be a good steward and that’s another story. It’s never about the fame and popularity. It’s about enjoying life because you have really live. 

And it all begins by threading the waters, paving the way, and living the very life you are called out to be. Stop becoming like everyone else because when you do, the world will miss a a unique contribution that’s in you. 

Live out your calling friends because there’s a reason why you behave that way. Make the most of the best gift you have receive from God. 
Because beside where I sleep are partial books to be covered and to be read and re-read. Our house will one day be a library in the mountaintop.

One Income But Builds A Home

I always hear people say in panic, “Why are you not working? This is not the trend now!!! It is impossible to live in one income these days!!!! You are losing your mind! Those were my thoughts also when it was only my brother who was working and he is still the one who puts the bacon on the table up until now but someone serves it so beautifully that it makes me change my mind. 

I want you to meet my brother (Jerry), his only daughter (Jherra), & his wife (Darwin). This was on their thin & challenging days but they have stood the test of time. 

My brother was the one working on a very small monthly income and his wife stayed and turned their house into a home. They raised a child, have a simple but super beautiful and peaceful home, have a modest appliances, enjoyed with friends and have a blast in life. I know that they went through the toughest of days but they emerged the strongest as the time went by. With their small income, they built a house and sheltered both of their respective families.  They have been so generous of their spaces regardless if they were the one who sweat and sacrificed for it. 

At their home, he gets up to work and his wife provided a first class service for their family. They have healthy food, a tidy house, and a peaceful home. In most cases, their home has been a shelter for cousins who temporarily strayed away from their respective partners and went home refreshed. 

The following are what I learn from a model family who live in just one income:

1) DON’T MIND WHAT PEOPLE WILL SAY. I’m sure they must have feel the pressure of the voices all around them but they stick to what works for them. For them, it’s best that one works while the other stayed at home to raise a child and build a sanctuary of peace. To each it’s own. We have different path to follow and I am sure that they have followed through faithfully and consistently.

2) MAKE THE MOST OF WHAT YOU HAVE. My sister in law can turn a trash into gold. She uses it for decorations,  painted it herself and viola, her home is the best, no bias, promise. She is just a gifted home maker who just minds her own business. 

3) BUDGET AND STICK WITH IT. With a very small income that my brother have, she literally sticks to her budget and enjoy life. She has no internet, no facebook account, no instagram, no twitter, but bask on peace. And she did not look disheveled at all. She knows how to carry herself with class and elegance. And wait, my brother is the most at peace without social media too.

That’s my sister in law Darwin. Isn’t she lovely? I have a high regard on her. That does mean to say that we don’t have disagreement? We do but I consider her a great blessing to our family. 

4) BE CONTENT. In their home, there is peace because they are contented with what they have but keeps on dreaming. I remember at one point my brother told me, “You serve the Lord, You are driving a car, have a high salary, but you don’t have peace.” It was an eye opener for me and I will never forget it. To desire for material possessions and money drives us crazy but to be content gives us the space to have more. Eventually, my brother has been blessed not just with possessions but with their fats as well (hahahaha).

5) ENJOY LIFE. I’ve seen them respecting each other while enjoying simplicity at its core. 

She does the laundry.

But he helped when the rain pours so suddenly.

6) RAISE A GOOD NATURED CHILD. Their daughter though going through teenage challenges is such a lovely lady and our future Miss Universe (hahaha) 

I woke up like this. That’s their only daughter who is oh so beautiful. 

They have modeled what a contented family really is.

***********************************************************************For me, my brother and his family  is successful and have so much more. Sometimes, he looked down at himself probably because of what he has seen around him. Sometimes we missed the gold within us because we see glitters that will just fade but theirs is a glitter that stays. I will never forget when I was 8 when I prayed to the good Lord that my brother will have the best wife and my sisters will have the best husband. He did answer my prayers. 

Tear Flows

In life, there comes a time that you have no other encouragement to give, rather what’s left are hidden waters that rushed out as raging tears. That’s exactly what happens today. 

I am AHT challenged at work and if you are a call center agent, you understand. I am being challenged to perform and I don’t have enough juices to excrete, if there is, it’s nothing but a bitter liquid that might provide a worst taste to anyone who likes to lick. Then I was about to retreat into a solitary place like Jesus always does when I was followed by a pain in the neck reminder of my terrible performance for this month and week. I was aggravated,  worst, discouraged, and muttered, it’s enough, I’ve got enough, I wanna quit. And my bitter taste spread like wildflower to the blooming lilies and to my surprise, I’ve got their sweet encouragement/s I never thought I’ve received. 

And so to my dry parched emotion rain down river of tears that won’t stop falling just like a visiting rain longed and prayed by the prophet in the Bible. I absorbed like a sponge but still undecided on which road to take but through it all, I feel so blessed to have been showered by roses when I there’s nothing but thorn in both my path and ways. 

So in between sobs and ugly tears is the knowing that my Heavenly Father cares😢😂😄😃