Live Out Your Calling//Do You

I remember standing in the background of our Elementary Campus in between the bermuda grass listening to the silent whisper of my heart. I was thinking of becoming a journalist and I never knew where I got it knowing that we don’t have television to watch. I probably must have gotten it through reading a book. I thought of having my own book published so the next generation specially my children will never go through the mistakes and hardships I have made. I can still recall the yellow pad so filled with my groanings and moanings because I can’t express my heart when I have to say it but oh how I could see my internal wishes when I started to write it down. In that yellow pad, I have written down my frustrations, my hopes, my fears, my anger,  my bitterness, and my secret prayers with so much hope that I could become that girl. It’s just a matter of time. I can still look back with pride over how much I was the school’s pride as I always won for poetry and essay contests here and there and everywhere. 

 Then I was thinking of becoming a lawyer and be the voice of the poor and the oppressed. I can’t always express my thoughts but oh how I love debate so much. I was that girl in the dreamland with so much hope and determination to make it big in life. 

Then I have to go to college and I was told to study education. While I don’t belittle the impact that teachers has for my life, I just felt that the dream slowly died and I was beginning to see the impact of poverty. But as I was thinking about it, it was in that department that I was introduced to Christ, the one who died and resurrected and He is still the one who have resurrected my dreams back to life. 

So here are my practical tips so you can LIVE OUT YOUR CALLING:

1) SEE WHAT YOU ARE VERY GOOD NATURALLY AT DOING & FAN IT TO FLAME. If that’s cooking then don’t wait for a cooking show to cook, start now in your kitchen. If that’s singing then sing everyday even if you can’t record yourself to be uploaded at You Tube, just sing. If that’s teaching, then  probably start sharing your knowledge to your brothers and sisters at home or maybe to your neighbors. If that’s writing, then start a blog and just write. Don’t wait to have a perfect grammar to start. Your greatness isn’t when you have become famous, it is when you have the courage to start. If that’s giving then enjoy your business or excel in your job. If that’s Homemaking then start in your home and make it your best work of art. 

2) REJOICE IN YOUR STRENGTHS AND SHARPEN IT. I know that the easiest thing to pick up from ourselves is to point out our weaknesses and begin to see how terrible we really are. We all have weaknesses but start looking at your strengths. I know that if I’ll visit my brother’s house and if I am not careful, I will feel terrible in comparison to my sister in law’s gift for home making. She excelled at it. It comes naturally at her. She can turn a haunted house into tourist spot. As for me, if I entered a room or a house, I will remodel it and turn it into a library. That’s for sure. So instead of feeling disgusted with myself, I rejoice in someone else’s strengths as I applaud mine. Thankfully today we have so many tutorials from You Tube to sharpen and enhance our strengths. 

3) SURROUND YOURSELF WITH LIKE MINDED PEOPLE. The best way to fan the flame of your gift is to be with people who has the passion to excel at where they are good at. Be with them. Watch them. Observe how they are doing things and start making your own. That’s what I do. I watch people in You Tube who are doing similarly with my interests and pursuits so I could have enough inspiration to pursue mine. I read inspiring blogs that will feed me into becoming who I am suppose to be.

4) BE YOU & DO YOU. There are so many voices suggesting you to become this and that. You better be a teacher because the retirement is quite high. Or you should work in the call center since you are very good in English and the pay is really good. Or you should make your home this way. So on and so forth. I realize that people started to lead us anywhere because they haven’t seen us going somewhere. But thank them anyway and start doing you and being you. You are unique. Your gifts are tailored to fit you. Explore the possibilities and start living. Remember, it is when you really do what you are called to do that you really really live. 

5) ENJOY THE PRESENT. Don’t wait for 20 years to enjoy life. Even if you are just starting right now and it looks like you don’t matter in this big world, ENJOY because you really did matter. And ENJOY NOW. Enjoy doing the very reason of your existence.  It’s never about how much money you have saved although we are called to be a good steward and that’s another story. It’s never about the fame and popularity. It’s about enjoying life because you have really live. 

And it all begins by threading the waters, paving the way, and living the very life you are called out to be. Stop becoming like everyone else because when you do, the world will miss a a unique contribution that’s in you. 

Live out your calling friends because there’s a reason why you behave that way. Make the most of the best gift you have receive from God. 
Because beside where I sleep are partial books to be covered and to be read and re-read. Our house will one day be a library in the mountaintop.

Tear Flows

In life, there comes a time that you have no other encouragement to give, rather what’s left are hidden waters that rushed out as raging tears. That’s exactly what happens today. 

I am AHT challenged at work and if you are a call center agent, you understand. I am being challenged to perform and I don’t have enough juices to excrete, if there is, it’s nothing but a bitter liquid that might provide a worst taste to anyone who likes to lick. Then I was about to retreat into a solitary place like Jesus always does when I was followed by a pain in the neck reminder of my terrible performance for this month and week. I was aggravated,  worst, discouraged, and muttered, it’s enough, I’ve got enough, I wanna quit. And my bitter taste spread like wildflower to the blooming lilies and to my surprise, I’ve got their sweet encouragement/s I never thought I’ve received. 

And so to my dry parched emotion rain down river of tears that won’t stop falling just like a visiting rain longed and prayed by the prophet in the Bible. I absorbed like a sponge but still undecided on which road to take but through it all, I feel so blessed to have been showered by roses when I there’s nothing but thorn in both my path and ways. 

So in between sobs and ugly tears is the knowing that my Heavenly Father cares😢😂😄😃

25 Facts About Me

A lot of those who read my blogs wonder who I am so here’s to the 25 facts about me👸

1) I AM AN INTROVERT. I recharged by being alone with my coffee, tinkering my tablet and not doing anything but just to stare and enjoy the moment of silence. That’s when I can hear God the most.

2) I DON’T LIKE SHOPPING MALLS. If I go, I dash to a bookstore and leave. 

3) I DON’T LIKE WINDOW SHOPPING. It’s a waste of time and energy.

4) I LOVE NATURE. Just by seeing the seas flow gently, the trees sway beautifully, the sun smiles brightly, and at night when the moon stopped to just look at me and the stars twinkle to celebrate me, oh, I am in awe of how MAJESTIC AND MATCHLESS GOD AS AN ARTIST IS. 

5) I AM A TO DO LIST WOMAN. I write what I need to do and I follow through. What I write is enough pressure to get up in the morning. If I don’t feel like doing anything, I will not write it so I will not feel guilty:mrgreen::mrgreen::mrgreen:

6) I LOVE BRITISH ACCENT. I watch You Tubers who are based in London and I can stay whole day dowloading their podcast and just hear them talk. London, here I come🏃🏃🏃🏃

7) I ONLY HAVE ONE BOYFRIEND. I am in a relationship for 5 years already and it’s been worth the wait. 

8) I FEEL SUPER LOVED BY JESUS. When I think about His blood shed out for me. When I think of Him going through hell just for me so I could go to Heaven with Him, that’s ENOUGH TO MAKE ME FEEL SO LOVED & COMPLETE.

9) I AM A MINIMALIST. Too much stuff gives me migraine. I just need the best few to survive.

10) I LOVE SAVING MONEY. Too much money is not a sin, the love of money is.

11) I LOVE GIVING. I am the happiest when I make people smile and feel the love of Jesus because they felt remembered as they receive finances, other stuff, or my time.

12) I HATE BEING LATE. It gives me so much stress if I arrive at work late or even in other events. 

13) I DON’T LIKE BEING THE CENTER OF ATTENTION. 

14) I DON’T LIKE RELIGION. It is doing something to please the Pharisees and Sadducees and hearing the leaders voice more than Jesus. 

15) I HAVE A LOCAL CHURCH PHOEBIA. That explains why I don’t want to commit to any local church activity because at most the leaders seemed best at far distance but too dangerous up close. But, I still go to church and join a Bible Study with my best friends.

17) I LOVE COFFEE. That’s where my morning routine starts.

18) I LOVE BOOKS. But now, I am giving away some of it and just retain few books which I think I needed for life.

19) I AM A LATE BLOOMER. 

20) I LOVE ORGANIZING. 

21) I LOVE PRAYING. That’s my best offense. 

22) I SHOP LIKE A MAN. I have my list. I go straight to where I can find it. Put it in a basket. Then rush to the counter.

23) I DON’T LIKE COOKING. I thank God for Jollibee, McDonald, Greenwich, Orange Brutus and all other restaurants and carenderias:mrgreen::mrgreen::mrgreen:

24) I LOVE TO WRITE. That’s an extension of me.

25) I AM A BACKPACK GIRL. It’s super cool.

So that’s just me. 

Have a lovely day💗

Let’s Simplify Success

With so many information that could overload our brain, success may become paralyzed in the inability of not doing anything. Sometimes, what we see in pictures will enamore us so much that we just don’t realized it that time passed by so quickly without accomplishing anything. As a result, we continue to become an spectator in someone elses glimpse of their success and our only accomplishment is watching others succeed.

So let’s make life simple. 

Let’s simplify success.

Let’s find our niche in line with our uniqueness.

Here’s to how I simplify my life.

1) I MEDITATE only TWO VERSES per MONTH. I know that reading the Bible is very necessary but I realized that mere knowledge of the WORD is too shallow compared to someone who lived the WORD. There is depthness in the one who allowed the Word to take Root in their hearts compared to someone who are just hiding behind the Divine Word and does not put it into practice. 

2) I MIND MY OWN BUSINESS. My pet peeves are people who are too noisy but are not willing to do their personal demands. So in order for me to have consistency with my personal values, I learn to evaluate my personal success and never mind what others are doing. At the end of it all, I am accountable of my own personal performance.

3) I COME TO WORK 45 MINUTES IN ADVANCE. One, it will give me time to prepare for my tools. Two, it allows me to relax and get ready for the day. Three, it enables me to review my notes and learn from my previous performance or mistakes.

4) I COMPETE WITH MYSELF. The greatest disaster is doing life while eyes on someone else. People have a different learning curve and the learning time varies but what I should keep up is my daily personal growth and how I can improve from my previous work or life score.

5) I DO HOUSEHOLD CHORES EARLY IN THE MORNING SO THAT I HAVE THE TIME TO REST IN THE AFTERNOON. Since my work officially starts at 2AM, I have to make sure that I can relax in the afternoon because I can re-charge in stillness. Noise saps all the energy out of me and so to be in a quiet room to breathe in and out without doing anything is simply a bonus.

6) I HAVE TO BE ME AND TO LIKE ME. I have a different way of doing things, learning, views, etc. I admire how God made me so unuiqely from others and by enjoying me, I enjoy how beautiful others are to be so far distinct from me. 

7) I LOOK FOR MENTORS WHO HAVE THE SAME VALUES SYSTEM AS MINE. Since I can’t find them in person, God has His own way of letting me know people in You Tube. One that I watch these days is Nina, and her you tube channel is THE MINIMALIST NINJA. I always tell my boyfriend that I really have a best friend in her. 

7) I DO WHAT I CAN AND I PRAY FOR WHAT I CAN’T. Instead of complaining why this and that? And why he or she does it? Why does so and so said that? Etc? I learn to give my 100% in everything that God has allowed me to experience because that’s where my accountability lies but on the other hand, I learn to take a back seat on something that’s impossible for me to do and trust that My Heavenly Father is working behind the scene so that His plans for me will come to pass in His own timetable.

SO WHAT WORKS FOR YOU?!?

You don’t need to copy someone else.

You don’t  need to follow the blue print of somebody else’s success. 

You have a pathway to take and so walk in it with conviction and confidence. Make it a pathway too pretty to resist. 

Because one day, someone who might get lost in life will temporarily pass in your route, let your foot prints be a message of perseverance, fun, faith, and authencity to stand out so that in your IMPACT, they may go back to their own PATHWAY and like you, will INSPIRE someone else to become the best VERSION OF THEMSELVES TOO.

A glimpse of where I came from. Because a woman from a mountain can live in the City and find work if she will DREAM and DO IT.

Mad Day But Madly Loved

I am a very motivated woman until Rest Day comes. For me, rest day is my lazy day when I don’t need to wake up at 2am and if I’ll do, I download nice content from You Tube and just have the best time of my life enjoying the time. This is the moment when I will savor my coffee without putting a time frame and just HUG THIS DAY CALLED REST DAY. This is how I re-charge from all the pressures at work. I don’t talk. I just enjoy the stillness at dawn. Sometimes, I grab my beautiful journal, write down my thoughts, meditate my verse for the month, blog, or just do nothing. 

So today, I lounge in bed and absorb the silence that I could definitely find until I heard my ever sweet boyfriend in all his good vibes and bubbly spirit wanting me to hurry up for church. The more I heard him talking, I was so infuriated that I stood up, took a bath and in my anger for being disturb from the time I allotted for myself, I unbelievably broke my hard to bend toothbrush. I was so mad!!!

And so we went to church and arrived there late while I brought my bad attitude with me. I listened to the pastor but I crossed my hand when the band ended it with a nice song of The Best Is Yet To Come. I just know deep within me that I need to get real with the Lord in a room with just me and Him. Yes, I love going to church but I also hate religiosity. 

My boyfriend remained calm all throughout, smiled the sweetest but my mind was just racing home. All I know is that I want to really re-charged from the pressures of the week and there’s no place that can cater it except HOME. 

So in my MAD DAY, my boyfriend held my hand and just simply said, 

“My Love, even if your hormones will strike you so badly, even if there are days that I can’t understand you, I will continue to love you as you are.”

And my tears fell like rivers and my heart shouted with so much thanks to the LORD who must have fulfilled His promise when He spoke in my heart in 1996 that He has prepared someone special for me. I was 17 years old then and 15 years later, when I was 32, I met the most amazing man in my life. It took a little longer than expected but to be in alignment with Heaven’s Calendar is way better than the time I have in my mind.

I could still remember how I gave up my list of what I wanted in a guy when I started to get to know Jesus and surrendered my love life to Him while allowing Him to choose the best for me. I so believe that He really did and He gave me with more than I deserve. 

He was singing Heavenly songs while doing home chores.

As I was given the time of my life to just sit down to reflect and be quiet, I ask forgiveness from my Father in Heaven who knew me even before I was born and instead of being condemned, I could only feel the liquid kind of love that melted my selfishness away.
So in my Mad Day, I felt so Madly Loved by My Father In Heaven, Jesus, Holy Spirit and from the man who represents Jesus in my life so well💟

Regardless of how your day feels like today, His unfailing love for you will never change. It’s just gets proven to be so tangible in your worst time. 

Highlights Vs Reality

​There is no doubt that we are in the time of our lives where the worship of stuff is the in thing and comparison is wildly overwhelming. We just click in and scroll instagram, facebook, twitter, and we see a picture of too good to be true poses, smiles and things that if we are not careful will slowly crept into our soul. Most of the time, we see prayers to the Lord in these social sites that is so contradictory to what Jesus said when we pray. In Matthew 6:6 Jesus said, But when you pray,  go into your PRIVATE ROOM, SHUT YOUR DOOR and pray to your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you (HCSB). We are in this season when verses are so easy to copy and paste to appear religious, me included, but has no evident of a changed lives. We are in this phase of BeautyPlus and 360 filter kind of applications that makes our photos appears fabulous as if everything is perfectly going on but it took 20 times of filters to finally decide the best angle. We are in this moment when everything can just be posted to keep up with the Joneses that we failed to keep up with what He says. In just one scroll, we can see the opinion of one famous individual in a far away land and we are just a type away to also make our thoughts known. Yes. That’s so me. 

At times, we become so engrossed of what others have become that we failed to check how our lives have turned out to be. The opinions of so many people who don’t know us become our go to advice to live. In some cases, we become so obsessed with what others have that we slowly kill ourselves in the process just to be in where everyone is IN. 

The truth of the matter is, the social sites photos of people including us is really not the real us. We see people in their best smile that seemed to have the best vacation and we join the loneliest party called PITY PARTY because how come life for them fares well but it doesn’t sit well with me? We see someone that seeemd enjoying their marriage life and we sulk in the corner joining a radio drama of why does she or he has the best spouse while mine doesn’t seem to care without us having an idea of how they kneeled down in prayer very early in the morning to have that kind of marriage while we fall asleep. We watch people driving their own brand new car and we wonder why we are still riding a bus without knowing that they push their butt off to work in order to pay their vehicle a month.
What am I saying? The social site photos are not always the real us. 
So what we going to do? Let’s see what we have and start thanking God. Let’s thank God for our job. It may not be the best job but we have a job and it puts food on our table. Let’s thank God for our health. We may not have a medical insurance but the Lord blessed our bodies with His strength and His vigor. Let’s thank God for our house. We may not have a mansion like our neighbor does but we are not in debt. Let’s thank God for our families. Ours may not be perfect but it has been the best. Let’s thank God for our partner, spouse, wife, and husband. They may not look like Brad Pitt or Angelina Jolie but they are the one who sacrifice their life for us to prove their love. Let’s thank God for who we are. We may not earn millions yet and our face may not look like someone in the magazine stand whose been photoshopped a thousand times over, but hey, we are created in the image and likeness of God and regardless of how small we seemed to be, we truly matter in His University.
Let’s not compare our lives in the highlights of someone else because we have no idea of how their back story really looks like. Let the authenticity in us shines out and let the spirit of Praise be our new habit. 
We have been so much blessed to compare ourselves to a facade that we failed to see His day to day grace, mercy, unfailing love, protection and a Father kind of care.
Let’s get real without being fooled by someone elses filtered highlights.

~Because the reality is I don’t always wear make up and life is not always organize as I wanted it to be~

Savor The Moment

God already promised that our future is going to be good and that’s if we believe. Therefore, give yourself the permission to savor the moment. There’s so much of God’s goodness to taste but sometimes we missed it because we are too absorbed of what’s to come. 

Learn today.

Be the best version of yourself today.

Grow today.

Be willing to be stretched today.

So that your tomorrow is not going to be too scary as you think.

Enjoy the Fatherhood of God.

Enjoy Jesus saving Grace.

Enjoy the Holy Spirit’s willingness to help.

This is the best day that God has made.

Savor it and taste God’s mercy and kindness.

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