​Why You Are Not Married Yet???

Oftentimes, acquaintances, friends,  co-workers, relatives, & church mates asked me of why I am not yet married. I always heared them said that I passed the age of child bearing and I will have a hard time giving birth. Other’s doubted of the sincerity of my boyfriend towards me. “Maybe your boyfriend is not so into you” they said. Some spiritual bullies will say that by the time I will have kids, groceries must be too high and tuition fees must be too hard to afford. There are also those who said that we must be so down and too poor to afford for a wedding. Well, so many opinions here, there, and everywhere.  Thankfully, over the years, I learn that respecting one’s opinion is a virtue (hahaha).
Here are probably the reasons why:
1) I became a teenager in my thirties. I went through a lot in life that I needed so much emotional healing only the Lord can perform. All I needed is a love from a Father In Heaven but working in the church allowed me to experience an earthly father’s love from my Pastors, and from the fathers in the church. I realized that there a great fathers who existed as well as great men who loves the Lord. 

2) My boyfriend is way younger than I am that when I was graduating in high school, he was still in grade 1. The Holy Spirit must have worked in my heart to guard me and helped me from saying no to the wrong person so I could say yes to the special man whom He had prepared for me. There were times that I cried my heart to sleep while confessing what He has put in my heart that “God Has Prepared Someone Special For Me” and I always answer that when people teased me of having no boyfriend when I landed in my 30’s. 
3) I still want to enjoy a teenage life of being in a relationship because I never experienced what it meant to be a teenager due to the fact that my mother died when I was 10 and I’m guessing that I became a very mean instant mom then. To be a mother way too early for a job you don’t know while also have no knowledge of God was too difficult. How I prayed that my brother and sisters will grow up and will have the best in life and I dreamed of breathing from being an instant mom. Thankfully, they all did and are growing in the Lord and I am also enjoying my single life. Thank you Jesus💗

4) I am still learning how to be a woman in Christ. I long wanted to become a wife. In fact when my uncle asked me what I really wanted, I answered, to become a Godly wife who brings her children to church and who will support her husband. My goodness, I don’t even know why I desired that in my teens. Oh how I prayed that my husband will not be a seaman or someone working overseas because of my sincere desire to become a Godly wife. 

5) We are still working in our finances. No, I don’t want a big wedding but I also don’t want to be stressed out with our finances. A little savings in the bank and hopefully future businesses and investments is a big help. Thank you Jesus. I’ve seen how money stressed my mother way back. How she cried in the night. How she became deaf because her food was given to all of us. And how she became mentally ill because of too much worries and anxiety. This is why I wanted all of us to become a good steward with our finances. 

6) I need to know first how to be a Godly wife.  I need mentorship. I need to see good examples of marriages founded by His truth.  Thank God for bringing to me Christian Ladies whom I can see as growing in the Lord while having a deep respect and love to their husbands. 

So while we had our Bible Study, Ter Yan surprisingly gave me and Ter Anne this book. I’ve seen this book way back then but I was not interested. I read and I was attacked with panic and depression (hahaha). The author is so sweet. My Bible Ladies are so gentle and kind.  I can’t be this woman. I realized that my heart needs cleansing of His Word so that it will submit to what He said, not to what I feel. 

I pray that marriages are strengthened by your relationship in Christ and may the single ladies out there will have to learn to wait for the person whom God has for them. For the time being, enjoy Jesus and His direction for your life. 
Have A Lovely Day💗💗💗

DON’T LOOK GOOD BROKE

When I was still working in the religious organization,  I was labeled as PASTORA FASHION because of how I dressed up, how I applied make up and of how I accessorized myself.  I also believe that presenting ourselves the best that we can isn’t bad provided that we did it moderately and it will not lead us into debt. 

Today, I still have two pouches of Make Up. I check and notice that there are still a lot that I don’t use and some really needs to be thrown away. 

These are my make up pouches. On the left was given to me by Ter Anne when she and her hubby went to Japan.  On the right was the pouch I purchased two years ago. I loved the design so I bought it out of impulse and not really out of need.

The following are my make up essentials after decluttering:

I keep this for my lips that cracks sometimes but since drinking a lot of water these days has been my habit, it has not recur anymore but I still use this when I am at home. I also apply this on my skin when I get burned out cooking and the oil spills out to my skin. 

I don’t apply day cream but my partner discovered this and it suits me perfectly well. He bought another one for me when were in Pagadian because he thought that the first day cream that he purchased was left in Cebu. That’s what it makes it two.

One night my partner brought his co-workers catalogue from AVON and he asked me to choose whatever I like and I chose this. I love this blush on. It melts on my face and I don’t look like Santa Claus. It comes out naturally on my skin as well.

We saw this at Watsons and the waterproof label  sold me out plus it was on sale. Then I was sweating under the heat of the sun and it melted. It was water proof amd not sweat proof (hahaha). But I will use this until I can consume everything to not waste money.

I got this last year and my lips will only go for Revlon lipstick. It’s quite expensive though but I can save for no allergies plus I got it in 50% sale. I guess, I can still use this for another year.

It has been with me since last year. It is still sharp and I am loving it.

I bought this because I like the picture, it’s so chic but it’s also natural when applied on my face. I purchased this two years ago but I am keeping it for the mirror. I don’t need to buy another mirror but I can save extra for not buying one unless of course if it is going to be broken. Hopefully, not in 10 years (hahaha).

I save this when I go to fast food restaurants and the line is long for handwash. It is still full because I made use of the wash area when we eat outside. But since I am still staying at home, I go for soap and water.

Pepsodent was not my toothpaste then. But I noticed that it’s a lot cheaper.  I only got this for P10.00 while the other toothpaste on this size cost P27.00 to P30.00. I saved money by shopping wisely even for toothpaste.

This pouch is to be given away along with some other make up that I don’t really use. 

And this is my only make up pouch left after tons and tons of make up. 

Some were thrown away because it’s no longer of good use and it will not add value in someone else’s life.

This is still in my pouch even if it has been fully consumed because this was a beautiful gift from my sister from Australia. No more perfume. The smells gone but I so love the color and the design. This reminds me of the love of family, generosity, and the importance of people. This is my thank you perfume. Everytime I see this beauty, I give thanks.

As I am thinking about this, it brings me to Psalm 139:13-17 ESV

13 For you have formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows very well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. 16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.  17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them.

So ladies and gentlemen, you are not your make up essentials. You were loved, valued, and cherished by God Himself even before the world sees you. Way before the ULTRASOUND had been invented, you were cared for by a LOVING FATHER IN HEAVEN. You were naked then but His thoughts for you were precious.

It’s not wrong to have make up but don’t ruin your budget just so you will fit on the image the world of instagram or social media presented to you. Don’t let it be your life pursuit. Start considering what adds value to your life and be content by the love of God through Jesus Christ. 

Now, if you are a make up artist, then buy tons of make up please. That’s business but at the same time that’s your outlet of your creativity. You earn from it and that’s good.

BUT DON’T LOOK GOOD BROKE. Yes, others are so impressed by your appearance but you are deceiving yourself because when you go home and remove all your make up, you are so stressed out of where to borrow money to pay for your kids tuition or how to pay rent because you are so busy impressing the people you don’t know and much more you don’t like. 

Just love you. Do you. Enjoy you and shine in the best you.

Remember, you are lovely even sans make up. 
Have a lovely day💗

Live Out Your Calling//Do You

I remember standing in the background of our Elementary Campus in between the bermuda grass listening to the silent whisper of my heart. I was thinking of becoming a journalist and I never knew where I got it knowing that we don’t have television to watch. I probably must have gotten it through reading a book. I thought of having my own book published so the next generation specially my children will never go through the mistakes and hardships I have made. I can still recall the yellow pad so filled with my groanings and moanings because I can’t express my heart when I have to say it but oh how I could see my internal wishes when I started to write it down. In that yellow pad, I have written down my frustrations, my hopes, my fears, my anger,  my bitterness, and my secret prayers with so much hope that I could become that girl. It’s just a matter of time. I can still look back with pride over how much I was the school’s pride as I always won for poetry and essay contests here and there and everywhere. 

 Then I was thinking of becoming a lawyer and be the voice of the poor and the oppressed. I can’t always express my thoughts but oh how I love debate so much. I was that girl in the dreamland with so much hope and determination to make it big in life. 

Then I have to go to college and I was told to study education. While I don’t belittle the impact that teachers has for my life, I just felt that the dream slowly died and I was beginning to see the impact of poverty. But as I was thinking about it, it was in that department that I was introduced to Christ, the one who died and resurrected and He is still the one who have resurrected my dreams back to life. 

So here are my practical tips so you can LIVE OUT YOUR CALLING:

1) SEE WHAT YOU ARE VERY GOOD NATURALLY AT DOING & FAN IT TO FLAME. If that’s cooking then don’t wait for a cooking show to cook, start now in your kitchen. If that’s singing then sing everyday even if you can’t record yourself to be uploaded at You Tube, just sing. If that’s teaching, then  probably start sharing your knowledge to your brothers and sisters at home or maybe to your neighbors. If that’s writing, then start a blog and just write. Don’t wait to have a perfect grammar to start. Your greatness isn’t when you have become famous, it is when you have the courage to start. If that’s giving then enjoy your business or excel in your job. If that’s Homemaking then start in your home and make it your best work of art. 

2) REJOICE IN YOUR STRENGTHS AND SHARPEN IT. I know that the easiest thing to pick up from ourselves is to point out our weaknesses and begin to see how terrible we really are. We all have weaknesses but start looking at your strengths. I know that if I’ll visit my brother’s house and if I am not careful, I will feel terrible in comparison to my sister in law’s gift for home making. She excelled at it. It comes naturally at her. She can turn a haunted house into tourist spot. As for me, if I entered a room or a house, I will remodel it and turn it into a library. That’s for sure. So instead of feeling disgusted with myself, I rejoice in someone else’s strengths as I applaud mine. Thankfully today we have so many tutorials from You Tube to sharpen and enhance our strengths. 

3) SURROUND YOURSELF WITH LIKE MINDED PEOPLE. The best way to fan the flame of your gift is to be with people who has the passion to excel at where they are good at. Be with them. Watch them. Observe how they are doing things and start making your own. That’s what I do. I watch people in You Tube who are doing similarly with my interests and pursuits so I could have enough inspiration to pursue mine. I read inspiring blogs that will feed me into becoming who I am suppose to be.

4) BE YOU & DO YOU. There are so many voices suggesting you to become this and that. You better be a teacher because the retirement is quite high. Or you should work in the call center since you are very good in English and the pay is really good. Or you should make your home this way. So on and so forth. I realize that people started to lead us anywhere because they haven’t seen us going somewhere. But thank them anyway and start doing you and being you. You are unique. Your gifts are tailored to fit you. Explore the possibilities and start living. Remember, it is when you really do what you are called to do that you really really live. 

5) ENJOY THE PRESENT. Don’t wait for 20 years to enjoy life. Even if you are just starting right now and it looks like you don’t matter in this big world, ENJOY because you really did matter. And ENJOY NOW. Enjoy doing the very reason of your existence.  It’s never about how much money you have saved although we are called to be a good steward and that’s another story. It’s never about the fame and popularity. It’s about enjoying life because you have really live. 

And it all begins by threading the waters, paving the way, and living the very life you are called out to be. Stop becoming like everyone else because when you do, the world will miss a a unique contribution that’s in you. 

Live out your calling friends because there’s a reason why you behave that way. Make the most of the best gift you have receive from God. 
Because beside where I sleep are partial books to be covered and to be read and re-read. Our house will one day be a library in the mountaintop.

Tear Flows

In life, there comes a time that you have no other encouragement to give, rather what’s left are hidden waters that rushed out as raging tears. That’s exactly what happens today. 

I am AHT challenged at work and if you are a call center agent, you understand. I am being challenged to perform and I don’t have enough juices to excrete, if there is, it’s nothing but a bitter liquid that might provide a worst taste to anyone who likes to lick. Then I was about to retreat into a solitary place like Jesus always does when I was followed by a pain in the neck reminder of my terrible performance for this month and week. I was aggravated,  worst, discouraged, and muttered, it’s enough, I’ve got enough, I wanna quit. And my bitter taste spread like wildflower to the blooming lilies and to my surprise, I’ve got their sweet encouragement/s I never thought I’ve received. 

And so to my dry parched emotion rain down river of tears that won’t stop falling just like a visiting rain longed and prayed by the prophet in the Bible. I absorbed like a sponge but still undecided on which road to take but through it all, I feel so blessed to have been showered by roses when I there’s nothing but thorn in both my path and ways. 

So in between sobs and ugly tears is the knowing that my Heavenly Father cares😢😂😄😃

Get Back Up

Yesterday was such my crisis of faith you wish you didn’t know me. Everything seemed so challenging plus the heat of the sun was so unforgiving that I reached home dog tired. On top of that, I read a message that must have no meaning, I make it so big that it must have surprised the person who read it. My thoughts raged through my writings and the three cups of rice was consumed in 6 minutes. My boyfriend always prayed with all kinds of prayers and will gently tell me that Jesus is way bigger that hormonal attacks. So there I was subscribing to give thanks in 30 days without complaining literally complains like I have forgotten the faithfulness of God.

This morning as I woke up early and is a little bit rested, thank you God for the aircon, felt so condemned. I regretted that I typed those words and sent without thinking. How come I seemed so nice in the office and to my co-workers whom I kept in far a distance but become so mean or acted like demon to people closest to my heart – my family. They don’t deserve the burst out of my frustrations whatever it maybe. I felt so disgusted. Am I returning to who I was being saved from? Am I going back to the art of pretensions to gain approval? Am I too shallow to believe in the lies just to prove my worth? 

As I have the room all by myself not even wanting to read the Bible, the Holy Spirit reminded me of the verse I read on March 24 in Proverbs 24:16 that says, though a righteous man falls seven times, HE WILL GET UP, but the wicked will stumble into ruin. Oh, how it heals my heart that the Lord Himself did not expect me to have it all together all the time but He does believes that I’ll get back up everytime I fall. 

I sat down reflecting as to my yesterday’s reaction and I begin to realize that I have put God’s burden into my frail shoulders when it must have been way too easier to just bank on His grace that must have been sufficient for me on a day to day basis. Pastor Chelsea Smith in her sermon said, “Give A Glance To Your Circumstances But Maintain Your Stare At Jesus.” She’s exactly right. 

It is when we take the lordship back to ourselves instead of yielding to Jesus as Lord that we feel like we have the right to judge, yell, and condemn back at people. On the other hand, the opposite is true. It is when we yield at the Lord Jesus Lordship that we begin to see people as precious because  that’s how Jesus sees and feels for them.

The truth is, I can’t take back the hurt that I must have probably stirred in the hearts of people yesterday but I can trust that the God of my life will work in every heart so each will have a good heart.

Today, don’t let the enemy pounce at your imperfections but remember that In Christ, growth isn’t expect to come out like magic, it’s going to be from glory to glory.

So Get Back Up And Keep Your Stare At Jesus💕

Because when he is challenged, he smiles, comes home and believes that Jesus loves him and His plans never fails. He is not just wearing the tshirt – he lives it.

Trust God’s Direction

I am just reading the book of Proverbs today and I landed in chapter 20 verse 24. It says in the NLT version that the Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way??

Having been given by God the brain to think, sometimes we over analyze our life route and begin to question or worst doubt God because we don’t like where we are in life. Yet, if our lives has been submitted to Jesus Christ, He becomes our Lord and we give Him permission to direct our lives. In that permission though we being human sometimes or most of the times want Him to line up to what we think is best for us oblivious of the fact that God is in our present as much as He is in our future. 

If we take a look at where we are, we sometimes scratch our head until all the dundruff fall off because for most of it, we don’t know why we are in here and there and it appears to be too nonsense and too far off from how we want our lives to be. 

But if He is a good Lord and He is, then His direction for us is for our good. It may seem rough today but the God who knows our future is aware of how it will take us to become like Christ if we yield in His leadership and trust in His leading. 

Today, let us trust that the God whom we submitted our lives into is not just concern about us going to Heaven. He too is serious about us becoming the person whom the Father designed us to be and fulfilling His will while living here on earth.

Have a blessed Monday y’all🏃

ULTIMATE MENTOR FOR LIFE CHANGING SUCCESS

Many of you knows that when I was celebrating my 10th birthday in 1989 with my brother and sisters, my mother died. That was the first time that I learned to suppress my emotion and pretended that I was strong. I did not show to everyone that I cried because as young as 10 years old, I had this idea that weak people always cry. I don’t want to be weak for my brother and sister’s sake but what I thought as strength became a great wall of China (hahahaha) that disabled people to come and mentor me. The truth is, I’ve seen too much in 10 years of just being a child. What was built on the inside of me was having a VICTIM MENTALITY. That rich people looks down to the poor and have the authority to make them as slave. That money talks. That if you are poor, even if you are intelligent, you will remain voiceless. That parents relationship has an impact in a child’s life. That words has power to birth life or to order death. That environment has an impact for our growth. That poverty is not a hindrance to success. That all those negative observations I mentioned above can be passed THROUGH IF WE HAVE A POSITIVE MINDSET AND A PERSEVERING SPIRIT.

Let me introduce to you my 6 Mentors For my Initial Success:

1) So let’s start with my GRANDFATHER. He always told me that I should finish my study because poverty is not a hindrance to success. That if I will PERSEVERE, I will be SUCCESSFUL. That I should not give up too soon. So he encouraged my aunt to send me to school after I wrote her a letter that I wanted to be her working student and I will do everything I can just so I can finish my study. My aunt was convinced and before I was sent to Cebu, my GRANDFATHER told me to write him a letter if they will maltreat me just because I don’t have a mother and he will come and visit me. That was enough to make me feel so courageous and so secure. Two years later, I felt that there was favoritism and I was badly treated so I wrote my GRANDFATHER a letter and true to his word, he surprisingly arrive the next day with his white hat, stripes polo shirt and went straight to my aunts room. There were no words except a tight hug and a gentle voice that says, POVERTY IS NOT THE HINDRANCE TO SUCCESS. That was the first visible example of INTEGRITY for me. My GRANDFATHER was true to his promise and afterwards I was tagged as GRANDPA’S FAVORITE. In fact I am convince that the main reason why I am a GOOD COUNSELOR for people is because I saw that firsthand from my GRANDFATHER. He did not finish Elementary but people flocked to him for counsel and he was very good. With his counsel, I finished COLLEGE but so sad at the same time because he died to cancer that same year as well. It was my FIRST SHOW OF RIVERS OF TEARS. It was my FIRST shout of grief hoping he will come back to life so I could have shared with him my diploma. It was my first battle of depression and too much sadness. It was my year of feeling I have achieved something but too useless to even celebrate. But because of him, I braved the city and win through college with an inner guts that God must have put in even when I was in my mother’s womb.

2) A TINY BOOK. In my grandparents house were books of my aunt that I frequented into and there was one book that I can’t remember the title but I can still picture the images in my mind. In that book was a story of  very poor man who believed that POVERTY WAS NOT THE HINDRANCE TO SUCCESS and became very successful at life. My visualization became very active and it made me realized that I am not the ONLY POOR GIRL in the world. That boosted a courage within me to sail Cebu City and conquer the unknown.

3) WORD OF GOD. In my aunts house in Cebu City was a beautiful family who rented a room and conducted Bible Study every Tuesday. I was invited and being so hungry of a  God my parents always mentioned when I was a child, I joined. In that Bible Study, Tita Mayette opened the Bible to James 1:12 and it says, “Blessed is the man who PERSEVERE UNDER TRIAL because when he stood the test, he will receive the crown of life which is God’s promise to those who loves Him.”  That’s My ONLY verse that waved me THROUGH COLLEGE. When it was too hard having to work and being a student at the same time, I meditated that verse and keep going to school regardless of how I was being treated. At school, I always had points because of my guts but my answer was always out of the point (hahaha). That’s my philosophy teacher (Dr. Tingcong) told me but she loved my being brave so much. 

4) MAGAZINE/LUCY TORRES. I first knew about her during a Life In The Spirit Seminar when a lay minister mentioned her name and told us that her first pay for her lux commercial was given to the church. It was my first realization that not all people who are born with a SILVER PLATTER in their mouth are mean. I searched all about her and then in one of her magazines I read that BEAUTY RADIATES FROM THE INSIDE OUT. That physical beauty regardless of how much make up you put on, if you are bitter, it’s not beautiful after all. Then it came to my senses at how bitter I was at life, at people and in myself. All of a sudden, it became so real to me that it’s not the people who has problems nor my circumstances but it’s me. I needed help. I don’t know how.

5) TELEVISION/JOEL OSTEEN. Having known that I have so much inner turmoil and bitterness that needs healing, I went to my cousin’s room crying until I unearthed my bitterness and there I saw that I was bitter at my father. That was after I kept changing channels and was stucked when a very laid back preacher, Pastor Joel Osteen talked about PEACE. I was so surprised that he did not shout but his message went deep inside my heart. In that room I cried and prayed and hoped that I would see my father again and God being God heard my prayers. Few months later, I saw him in our rented small room lying on the floor resting. I was not prepared for it. I wanted to fulfill my promise made against him when I was a child that if I will see him again, I will kill him. But I knew Jesus. In that pivotal moment, I was reminded of Pastor Joel’s message that to stay bitter will never lead to a peaceful life. I wanted inner peace so much that I can’t stay bitter all my life. Then I heard the gentle voice of the Lord that says, “I LOVE YOUR FATHER AS MUCH AS I LOVE YOU.”It took so many years to accept that but I thank God for His steadfast love that never pushed me away from Him. 

6) YOUTUBERS. There’s a lot but let me you give a few. a) Marilyn Hickey for teaching me to LIVE THE WORD & UNLOCK THE MIRACULOUS b) Sarah Bowling for teaching me to work with the Holy Spirit c) Victoria Osteen for teaching me to enjoy today and trust that God will have enough grace sufficient for me tomorrow d) Terri Savelle Foy for teaching me to dig in my heels e) Jerry Savelle for teaching me to NEVER NEVER NEVER QUIT f) Gloria Copeland for teaching me to stand on the Word of God and believe for healing g) Rachel Cruze for teaching me the value of contentment and savings h) Dodie Osteen for teaching me faith and trust in Jesus Christ and His Word 

So those were my mentors for my initial success. I said initial because I just started to bloom in life and because outside success is nothing without the work of JESUS CHRIST. He is the ULTIMATE MENTOR & LIFE STANDARD. He has all the qualities worth to be emulated but He has so many ways to lead us to our destiny. I am thankful that JESUS isn’t hungry of accolades that He uses various people to capture my attention so I will believe it in my heart that He truly loves me  having His blood shed as evidence. I am thankful for His never ending interccession for me to the Father and grateful for giving me such support up until today by giving me wonderful people to continue to believe in me. I know that we have an individual relationship with Jesus and it will be not too much when I will proudly say, “I AM THE OBJECT OF HIS AFFECTION.” He is my mentor for a SUCCESS THAT WILL HAVE AN ETERNAL IMPACT. He is  my mentor who lives forever. 

May you all will say the same. May you have that special bond with Him. May you say thank you for His sacrifice for you by giving up Heaven and live with us here on earth. May you praise Him for going through hell for you so you will be with Him in Heaven. May you give Him thanks for dying for you so you will live.

“BECAUSE JESUS LIVES,  YOU TOO WILL LIVE.”

Fulfill your dreams.

Never Give Up.

Never Lose Hope.

And remember, that HE WHO PROMISED IS FAITHFUL TO FULFILL IT.

Have a lovely day💕