Tear Flows

In life, there comes a time that you have no other encouragement to give, rather what’s left are hidden waters that rushed out as raging tears. That’s exactly what happens today. 

I am AHT challenged at work and if you are a call center agent, you understand. I am being challenged to perform and I don’t have enough juices to excrete, if there is, it’s nothing but a bitter liquid that might provide a worst taste to anyone who likes to lick. Then I was about to retreat into a solitary place like Jesus always does when I was followed by a pain in the neck reminder of my terrible performance for this month and week. I was aggravated,  worst, discouraged, and muttered, it’s enough, I’ve got enough, I wanna quit. And my bitter taste spread like wildflower to the blooming lilies and to my surprise, I’ve got their sweet encouragement/s I never thought I’ve received. 

And so to my dry parched emotion rain down river of tears that won’t stop falling just like a visiting rain longed and prayed by the prophet in the Bible. I absorbed like a sponge but still undecided on which road to take but through it all, I feel so blessed to have been showered by roses when I there’s nothing but thorn in both my path and ways. 

So in between sobs and ugly tears is the knowing that my Heavenly Father cares😢😂😄😃

The UNIVERSE Is Aware

One of my epic fails in life is that I give up when I am almost at the end of the summit. The voice of “WHAT IF” will cross in my mind a thousand times again and again and this chit chat became so big that it conquers me and eventually my fight to win for my dreams. I will never forget of my previous employment experience and how I unethically left and lose my demeanor of grace and respect simply because I entertained uninvited guests chit chatters in my head. 

Truth be told, underneath my bad exit was my fear of not being endorsed. Those fears where boiled all the more when I surrounded myself with complainers and without me knowing it, I sipped the toxic kind of coffee called GOSSIP and I went home so guilty of an action I never expected myself will do but I did. 

Fast forward, when I surrendered once again to Someone greater than myself, something on the inside of me gently says, “GOD IS AWARE.” He is aware of the best job ahead of me. He knows the best year I will be engaged. He has the best career for me with my name on it. He has me in the palm of His hands. He knows the danger ahead and He already charged His angels concerning me to protect me in all my ways. It was when I leaned on and trusted that the Universe has nothing but my good that slowly the layers of fears has been broken down until I just wake up and constantly say, God you are aware of my TODAY and I thank you that You have cleared the path for me and for my loved ones. This has been a great released for me and instead of waking up afraid of what’s to come,  I wake up EXPECTANT that the UNIVERSE has my back and the destiny that He has for me will SURELY come to pass. 

So, when my training took a little longer,  and when I heard a little negative chit chat on the side, In silence I sigh in TRUST that whatever the outcome will be, either I get endorsed or not, the EXPERIENCE makes me a better person and the months gave me the opportunity to SHINE because of His Glory. In Psalm it says, GOD’S GLORY, MAN’S DIGNITY. Yes, His Glory in my life has DIGNITY as my beautiful side effects. By just trusting in His ways, I GOT ENDORSED, NO SWEAT. Let’s just put it this way: His BLOOD, my FAVOR. 

So, when the voice of uncertainty knocks my head, I sigh in HOPE and gently declare to the UNIVERSE my prayer and say “LORD, YOU AE AWARE AND I TRUST THAT IT’S NOTHNG BUT FOR MY GOOD.”

That simple prayer gives me so much peace. And when the knock becomes so violent, I reminded myself of how I was born totally poor but He fed me. How I lost my mother on my birthday when I was 10 but He nourished me. How I drowned in the ocean and gone for 30 minutes but He has saved me through my father. How I fainted under the banana tree out of hunger when I was 11 and He strengthened me. How I lost all the people I thought I have poured out my life more than my family but He made His loyalty and unfailing love more evident to me. How I was down in debt and it looks like there’s no way out but He taught me stewardship to even knowing how to save. How I was being bullied to be so UGLY and SHORT to being so Favored, loved and valued wherever I go. How I was I was teased to never have a boyfriend and husband because of a natural ugliness to have been blessed with a boyfriend who worships JESUS, prayed to Him and for me and values my PURITY. How I was prophesied to be a “HOUSEHELPER” forever to becoming a PROFESSIONAL TEACHER, WRITER, SPEAKER and MORE TO COME. How I was a BITTER woman with no one would like to ever be around me to a sweet blooming lady and impacting people for eternity.

Yes, God is aware and when we Surrender and just trust in His ways, it’s going to be a journey with a beautiful story that will GIVE HIM THE GLORY.

So, trust Him. 

Trust, that the UNIVERSE HAS YOUR BACK.

What’s In A Name???

Jochilicious Cafe Talks? What??? Opps. Please don’t go yet. So here. I am a confident girlfriend. Goshh. And so I changed my boyfriends FB profile combining both our name. I stared at it & Oh My Goodness. I don’t like it. It’s common. Nothing artistic. Booring. So for a week that’s in my heart. Pretty intense huh? Promise. I asked Jesus about a unique name that’s still our combination with a twist. I woke up quite early. It’s a miracle in itself. And. He gave me a name. Am like, that’s stunning & I must have you now. I waited for another week. Well, if you know me, I always change my mind & so when the name stays, it’s a sure sign that I heard from God. Horraayyyy!!!!

He is Jonelo. I’m Metchili. I don’t know. But with Jesus at the Center & the two of us together. Then. Life is #simplyjochilicious 😆

Jesus Loves You🌻

Have Fun Under The Sun

My boyfriend picked me up yesterday to where I always frequent the most, “Book Sale At Robinson Fuente.” He knew too that if we have to meet somewhere and one of us run out of loads that he can just go to Book Sale and he can surely find me. As we exit from my favorite place, we went right away to Expressions where we bought scrapbooking materials for our thank you notes to his sister and brother in law who had been amazingly generous to all of us.

Off we went to Fuente circles where we could find food booths that would satisfy our battling stomachs that cries for food, food, and more food. Hahaha. The truth was, I almost resisted him of bringing me to a place of chaos where the flock of people makes me crazily dizzy and the noise disable me to hear from him as much as he can’t hear from me, and that’s the most critical part hahaha.

As were strolling, I was also speaking into myself internally, that relationship isn’t always about me and so instead of complaining and insisting of going home, I joined with what seems to be fun for him.

As a result, we won in the sun promo. We got an 8Gb USB, tumbler, and pretty photos for free. I was cheering my love to win and he was wonderfully perfect in every challenge. We were doing high five, completely beaming from ear to ear and drive home joyful over how God must have been so good as a Father even in little things.

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We were definitely having fun under the sun at night:D

Jesus Loves You🌻

Keep It Fresh

Life could stink and moments could be stale if we keep looking back when we have today. I believe that everyday is a shower of His fresh grace and fresh mercy.

We wake up and the leaves burst with so much life opthalmologists said it’s good for the eyes. I remember having an eye check up and the eye doctor said that I had green deficiency. I was taken aback to that diagnosis until I finally realize that I don’t exactly like green because it associates to the woman I judged as attention seeker and she’s green crazy. Opps.

In our home, I ‘ll see the beauty of how the sun shines, the different forms of clouds that greets me everyday, and the breeze that sometimes touches my face or blow my hair away in totally different strokes daily. Other times, I could just hear the volume of water that gushes out from the faucet which tells either the person is in hurry fearful that he or she’s late or one is calm as a static ocean. On some occassions, I could just hear the joyful song of my brother as he’s watching and feeding the roosters alongside my father.

As I am about to check the soap holder today, my eyes are drawn to yellows that seems smiling at me. I was drawn to how beautiful and joyful this color is and as I take a deeper look, I’ve seen the SURF Message of “Sun Fresh.”

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I guess yellow has been exemplary beautiful because of other colors that blend with just one. And, as I am just thinking about it I realize that when we only have a fresh perspective about life on a daily basis, we can always say that life is totally colorful and that makes our life beautiful.

The truth is, if we keep the stale events of our yesterdays, we become unfair to Jesus who always gives us a fresh start.

Like Surf that says, it’s Sun Fresh, how about if we begin to gaze upon Jesus and join with His perspective so we can always smile today with hope as we keep it fresh.

Have a fresh Sunday everyone💗

Jesus Loves You🌻

Bible Stuff

I went to a fellowship community one time and I went home crying basically because our belief system differs. I guess I picked up the message incorrectly and I had a hard time figuring out the God that He believes and the God that I believe. Overnight, I slept in tears because of simple differences then the light’s been turned on and I learned the following:

1) We only have a pigment knowledge of God but when the complete One comes, we will understand.

2) We don’t need to agree in everything but we can get at least one thing and that’s enough to keep us going.

3) We have to pick our Bible, ask the Holy Spirit and listen to how He wants us to see God and Jesus.

4) When we have Jesus, we already have everything, that’s the main course and for as long as they preached Jesus as the Savior, gracious, merciful then that’s the best in itself.

Oh so, grab your Bible, listen to the Holy Spirit, then press in to Jesus.

God Bless You

Chronicles

Last night as I was staring at the wall, I just heard on the inside of me that I have to read Chronicles. So me having heard it, got my Bible and read it.

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On the first chapter of 1 Chronicles, I wanna put the Bible down because I only get to read the names of the people. So I said God, why all the names? Promise I skipped those chapters (I’m sorry Lord). First, I could not understand why they were there. Second, their names are hard to pronounce (hahaha).

This morning I grabbed it again and since I skipped the first four chapters last night, I asked God in my spirit, why the names again and He said, that’s why it’s Chronicles. It is a narrative. A story. A diary. Huh? So to make sure that I heard it right, I checked my loving and stable partner, the Random House Rogets Thesaurus (yahoo) and I found the following meaning of Chronicles: record, history, chronology, journal, diary, account, logs, narrative, story.

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OMG!!!! I must have heard Jesus.

And this is what He told me. You can learn from the people in the Book of Chronicles and you can choose the kind of life you want. Really? And it also boiled down to me, how am I writing my life story.

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When the people chronicles my life, will they be inspired to follow Jesus or will they see me as the pattern of what not to do? (Oppps)

I guess today is a starting point of the kind of Chronicles I want for the rest of my life.

Happy Sunday.

Praying for the good Chronicles of your life♡♡♡