​Why You Are Not Married Yet???

Oftentimes, acquaintances, friends,  co-workers, relatives, & church mates asked me of why I am not yet married. I always heared them said that I passed the age of child bearing and I will have a hard time giving birth. Other’s doubted of the sincerity of my boyfriend towards me. “Maybe your boyfriend is not so into you” they said. Some spiritual bullies will say that by the time I will have kids, groceries must be too high and tuition fees must be too hard to afford. There are also those who said that we must be so down and too poor to afford for a wedding. Well, so many opinions here, there, and everywhere.  Thankfully, over the years, I learn that respecting one’s opinion is a virtue (hahaha).
Here are probably the reasons why:
1) I became a teenager in my thirties. I went through a lot in life that I needed so much emotional healing only the Lord can perform. All I needed is a love from a Father In Heaven but working in the church allowed me to experience an earthly father’s love from my Pastors, and from the fathers in the church. I realized that there a great fathers who existed as well as great men who loves the Lord. 

2) My boyfriend is way younger than I am that when I was graduating in high school, he was still in grade 1. The Holy Spirit must have worked in my heart to guard me and helped me from saying no to the wrong person so I could say yes to the special man whom He had prepared for me. There were times that I cried my heart to sleep while confessing what He has put in my heart that “God Has Prepared Someone Special For Me” and I always answer that when people teased me of having no boyfriend when I landed in my 30’s. 
3) I still want to enjoy a teenage life of being in a relationship because I never experienced what it meant to be a teenager due to the fact that my mother died when I was 10 and I’m guessing that I became a very mean instant mom then. To be a mother way too early for a job you don’t know while also have no knowledge of God was too difficult. How I prayed that my brother and sisters will grow up and will have the best in life and I dreamed of breathing from being an instant mom. Thankfully, they all did and are growing in the Lord and I am also enjoying my single life. Thank you Jesus💗

4) I am still learning how to be a woman in Christ. I long wanted to become a wife. In fact when my uncle asked me what I really wanted, I answered, to become a Godly wife who brings her children to church and who will support her husband. My goodness, I don’t even know why I desired that in my teens. Oh how I prayed that my husband will not be a seaman or someone working overseas because of my sincere desire to become a Godly wife. 

5) We are still working in our finances. No, I don’t want a big wedding but I also don’t want to be stressed out with our finances. A little savings in the bank and hopefully future businesses and investments is a big help. Thank you Jesus. I’ve seen how money stressed my mother way back. How she cried in the night. How she became deaf because her food was given to all of us. And how she became mentally ill because of too much worries and anxiety. This is why I wanted all of us to become a good steward with our finances. 

6) I need to know first how to be a Godly wife.  I need mentorship. I need to see good examples of marriages founded by His truth.  Thank God for bringing to me Christian Ladies whom I can see as growing in the Lord while having a deep respect and love to their husbands. 

So while we had our Bible Study, Ter Yan surprisingly gave me and Ter Anne this book. I’ve seen this book way back then but I was not interested. I read and I was attacked with panic and depression (hahaha). The author is so sweet. My Bible Ladies are so gentle and kind.  I can’t be this woman. I realized that my heart needs cleansing of His Word so that it will submit to what He said, not to what I feel. 

I pray that marriages are strengthened by your relationship in Christ and may the single ladies out there will have to learn to wait for the person whom God has for them. For the time being, enjoy Jesus and His direction for your life. 
Have A Lovely Day💗💗💗

25 Facts About Me

A lot of those who read my blogs wonder who I am so here’s to the 25 facts about me👸

1) I AM AN INTROVERT. I recharged by being alone with my coffee, tinkering my tablet and not doing anything but just to stare and enjoy the moment of silence. That’s when I can hear God the most.

2) I DON’T LIKE SHOPPING MALLS. If I go, I dash to a bookstore and leave. 

3) I DON’T LIKE WINDOW SHOPPING. It’s a waste of time and energy.

4) I LOVE NATURE. Just by seeing the seas flow gently, the trees sway beautifully, the sun smiles brightly, and at night when the moon stopped to just look at me and the stars twinkle to celebrate me, oh, I am in awe of how MAJESTIC AND MATCHLESS GOD AS AN ARTIST IS. 

5) I AM A TO DO LIST WOMAN. I write what I need to do and I follow through. What I write is enough pressure to get up in the morning. If I don’t feel like doing anything, I will not write it so I will not feel guilty:mrgreen::mrgreen::mrgreen:

6) I LOVE BRITISH ACCENT. I watch You Tubers who are based in London and I can stay whole day dowloading their podcast and just hear them talk. London, here I come🏃🏃🏃🏃

7) I ONLY HAVE ONE BOYFRIEND. I am in a relationship for 5 years already and it’s been worth the wait. 

8) I FEEL SUPER LOVED BY JESUS. When I think about His blood shed out for me. When I think of Him going through hell just for me so I could go to Heaven with Him, that’s ENOUGH TO MAKE ME FEEL SO LOVED & COMPLETE.

9) I AM A MINIMALIST. Too much stuff gives me migraine. I just need the best few to survive.

10) I LOVE SAVING MONEY. Too much money is not a sin, the love of money is.

11) I LOVE GIVING. I am the happiest when I make people smile and feel the love of Jesus because they felt remembered as they receive finances, other stuff, or my time.

12) I HATE BEING LATE. It gives me so much stress if I arrive at work late or even in other events. 

13) I DON’T LIKE BEING THE CENTER OF ATTENTION. 

14) I DON’T LIKE RELIGION. It is doing something to please the Pharisees and Sadducees and hearing the leaders voice more than Jesus. 

15) I HAVE A LOCAL CHURCH PHOEBIA. That explains why I don’t want to commit to any local church activity because at most the leaders seemed best at far distance but too dangerous up close. But, I still go to church and join a Bible Study with my best friends.

17) I LOVE COFFEE. That’s where my morning routine starts.

18) I LOVE BOOKS. But now, I am giving away some of it and just retain few books which I think I needed for life.

19) I AM A LATE BLOOMER. 

20) I LOVE ORGANIZING. 

21) I LOVE PRAYING. That’s my best offense. 

22) I SHOP LIKE A MAN. I have my list. I go straight to where I can find it. Put it in a basket. Then rush to the counter.

23) I DON’T LIKE COOKING. I thank God for Jollibee, McDonald, Greenwich, Orange Brutus and all other restaurants and carenderias:mrgreen::mrgreen::mrgreen:

24) I LOVE TO WRITE. That’s an extension of me.

25) I AM A BACKPACK GIRL. It’s super cool.

So that’s just me. 

Have a lovely day💗

Discovery

I was just making an experiment to live a hopeful and quiet life and I discover the following:

1) Take time to be rooted in Jesus love. His love surpasses any kind of love.
2) Meditate on God’s Word. So many opinions and harsh words these days, but we can choose life or death. Choose life
3) Mind your own social media page. Freedom of speech has been abused that even an anger against someone is freely written in cyberspace.
4) Avoid gossips. Not everything said about you and them is 100% true.
5) Be content. You don’t need to be like the Joneses next door.
6) Stay in your call. You are the one who hear Him for yourself so go ahead and do what He said.
7) Good association. Eventually, you will become who you hang out with. So, hang out to the Word addict.

My discovery to a joyful and peaceful life💞💞💞

💜💜💜 Jesus Loves You 💜💜💜

It’s More Fun With The Family

This year has been a great year so far because the Lord gave me the opportunity to travel back in Leyte with the family after a long long time. I miss being with my brother so much and it was such a great time to be together, this time, helping together, like him working and me sleeping while he just have to wake me up. Yahoo.

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My handsome smiling brother being so nationalistic in my aunts “pot-pot.” He laughed all the time driving our soon to be brother in law from Paris.

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The one on the driving seat is our brother by heart. He is such a nice guy that we all fall in love with him instantly. Humble. Family oriented. And most of all, he loves our sister.

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Brothers. My sister in law’s brother was with us, my brother, and our soon to be brother in law. I am just so happy to see them enjoying each others company and to also see my brother having brothers that he can enjoy with.

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It’s a miracle picture. We seldom have a picture together. God healed me on the inside that after a long time of hating and bitter against him, the Lord just gave me compassion for him. I stumble from time to time but I am far better than before. Thank you Jesus for my father, so game when the light, camera, action, smile♡♡♡

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Boho beach. I never thought you will be as beautiful as this. The soft sand that touches my feet. The breeze that blew my hair gently. The ocean that never gives me allergy. Thank you Jesus for you.

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My Root. A simple family. With a simple joy. With so much faith. We’ve been through hard times. Good times. But life is better when it’s shared with them. Thank you Jesus for my uncle, aunt, and cousin.

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With them, I felt like a Princess. The calmness of my soon to be brother in law, the mercy and compassion of my brother, the peace and jokes of my father. Jesus makes these things happen.

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The 3 J’s. (L-R: Julien, Jonelo, Jerry) as my sister in law looked on.

The journey is still going. The strength are far better than before. The growth outweighs the yesterdays. The grace of God is so much abounding. There are rough roads, bumpy rides, painful moments, joyous occasions,  but in all these, having Jesus as the center of it all, it’s really more fun with family.

You may have the closest friends, the millions of followers on social media, the co workers whom you enjoy with on a daily basis, the ministry as your escape for lonely days, but take note, when the going gets the toughest, it’s your family who will stick with you and support you ’till the end.

May you take time to ponder and in your heart may you start thanking Jesus for the gift of family and despite differences may you start thanking your parents, brothers, sisters, in laws for letting you see and experience true life beauty in a true community, family.

Fresh Start

The social media is wonderful when used for the glory of God and a disastrous when used to pour out emotions. First, it can’t read what’s going on with our hearts. Second, we gain symphatizers who becomes so into us without knowing the whole story. Before we know it, a simple misunderstanding becomes a scandal, the crowd bought it and we become famous for a negative publicity. If it’s on the headline, it might read, A Follower Of Jesus Leads The Chaos. Yahoo. And worst, the people whom we label as unbelievers becomes the mediator for peace. Huh? We tell them to be the children of darkness and yet they stand in the gap in the name of peace? And we are confident to call ourselves the children of LIGHT but we initiated the riot. Where? In social media.

I always wonder why can we not talk to the person concern? If we can’t then why can we not pour it out to the Father in the name of Jesus? I mean, Jesus provided us access to the Father. That’s just goes to show that we are standing in the name of rituals and religion. The shaky the foundation of our life is, the quiveering our confession and the way we live and conduct our lives will become.

Guilty? Feeling ouch? Like you wanna blurt out and say, who do I think I am? Common. Chill. I was exactly like that woman. I was breathing and living in religion that when life gives a blow, I was knockdown on the first round. I wish I did not go to one person and vomitted my heart out. I wish I knew that Jesus is the Rock of my salvation in whom I stand. I wish I was not a spiritual police woman who was so delighted to go home when I have plenty of catch. I wish I read my Bible daily and hear from God. I didn’t. The only voice I knew was the voice of the spiritual authority who boldly say that the voice of the man of God is the voice of God. If you disobey the man of God, you disobey God. That’s scary. Why would I disobey God? Innocent? Or simply fearful and wants the approval of men?

What am I saying? When we join in religion, social media is a platform of a put on righteousness. Our messages seemed perfectly the best for outreaches and Bible studies but when we take a look upon ourselves, we then realized that we are groping in the dark, not knowing who we really are and to whom we really stand. We put on the most polished sermons on Sundays and when we go home, we maltreated our househelp, dishonor our parents, and hated our spouse.

As a blogger, I am accountable to every word that I write. Yes, I am guilty of writing out of my emotions in the past. I am guilty of hiding behind a blog just to spill the hidden dirts of my heart but thank Jesus for His redemption. It’s where I can have the freedom to have a fresh start.

I write in all honesty just to tell you that my humanity isn’t different from your humanity and that we can all have a fresh start as we are truly in real relationship with Jesus Christ.

Start afresh and anew in His redemptive power and love.

Have a great day.

Arise And Simplify

Life now has become very complicated. We have to think what kind of coffee we have to drink because there are so many choices and every brand offers a life changing taste experience. We have to ponder a thousand times what we wear because the closet has full grown to the seams and even raiding it makes us paranoid. We have to carefully consider what gadgets to buy because right after we bought what we consider as the latest, what we just acquire become an outright obsolete because another comes up with better features, yeah far better than what we just purchased. Then there’s the Bible. We sometimes have to argue with others over what’s the best translation. We have so many formulas of what it is to have a relationship with God. We have to be an usher in the church to get the attention of God. We have to be part of a 12 because that’s the only thing that works. We have to write our devotion their way because that’s the best way of hearing God. And on and on and on. 

Martha opened her home to Jesus, leave Jesus in the couch, went straight to her kitchen and prepare the food to be served for Jesus. Then while she was preparing the food, she just realized that her sister did not follow her and assist her. She was irritated, anxious, troubled, and upset that she can’t help herself, went out from the kitchen and went directly to Jesus to get His attention. Like, Lord, I am very busy for you but look what my sister is doing, she just sat down there doing nothing! Let her stand up and assist me because there’s still so many things to do for you. (Luke 10:38-40). Then Jesus said, Martha, Martha, you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed – or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her (Luke 10:41-41, NIV).

We are like that too. We rise up and check our clothes then we can’t find any and we become irritable because  hey, I am serving Jesus as an usher. Or we could be having our devotion and we don’t feel like taking down notes because we just like to underline our Bible and we are condemned because we are told to do devotional in a certain way. As if we can’t hear from God because we have our own style.

Hey friends. Arise and simplify your life. There’s only One thing that is needed. That is to spend time with Jesus. Just spend time with Him in a way that is at peace with you. You can go to your guest bedroom and spend time with Him. You can do laundry and talk to Him. You can be in your bedroom kneeling and tell Him your hearts. You can read your Bible and underline it because it speaks to your heart. You can be in your car and talk to Him there. It’s relationship. It’s not ritual to get His attention. It’s not an effort to get His love. You are already loved.

The bottom line is Jesus. Because honestly, we can look religious and impress people with our religiousity but miss Him and as a result, we become so irritable for Jesus when the truth is, Jesus presence affects us on the inside which in return radiates outward.

Have a great day.

BarNuts

After all the household chores that has been over and done. The plates has been washed. The colored clothes has been dried. The stairway to papa’s classroom has been cleaned. The tables has been dusted. Another rice has been cooked. I just figured out that I needed a break and that I deserve a reward. Yeah. I have to have some motivation to keep me going before the next day will come when I have to fellowship with all the white clothes and wash them to my hearts delight.

I thought and barnuts popped up like pop corn on my head. I leaped with joy like a little child who will go to toy kingdom and has toys in mind. I got five of those blue barnuts and savor it like I won in The Voice and Starstruck. Oh, how as simple as barnuts makes me feel so rewarded.

Instead of whining and murmuring, life can be enjoyed at home. I can sing while washing the clothes. I can dance while dusting the tables. I can pray while I am washing the plates. I can dream while I am cooking the rice. And I can taste the barnuts while I am resting through blog.

Life is simple but we complicate it by over analyzes.. Life is beautiful but we think too much of how tomorrow will be that we failed to see what God is doing today. Life is a celebration but we mourn because we can’t be happy with what we have. Life is rich with vigorous health but it becomes poor because we see our physical  imperfections. Life is peaceful but it becomes chaotic because of too much negativity.

How about enjoying life? How about thanking Jesus for a day full of His love, favor, and mercy? How about rewarding ourselves with a job well done at home?

Well, it does not have to  be as expensive as luxurious bags carried by a celebrity. It can be barnuts. You can bite its sweetness and it’s naturally nutty yummy. A reward for a happy day, God’s wondrous gift for you and me.

So, if you are a homemaker? I salute you. Cheers for a job well done. And when you feel so tired? Take barnuts and enjoy the bite.

May you all enjoy the chores you have to do at home and may you find the pleasure of thanking Him that while others are searching for a place to live, you do not just have a house but a home to love and serve.