Tear Flows

In life, there comes a time that you have no other encouragement to give, rather what’s left are hidden waters that rushed out as raging tears. That’s exactly what happens today. 

I am AHT challenged at work and if you are a call center agent, you understand. I am being challenged to perform and I don’t have enough juices to excrete, if there is, it’s nothing but a bitter liquid that might provide a worst taste to anyone who likes to lick. Then I was about to retreat into a solitary place like Jesus always does when I was followed by a pain in the neck reminder of my terrible performance for this month and week. I was aggravated,  worst, discouraged, and muttered, it’s enough, I’ve got enough, I wanna quit. And my bitter taste spread like wildflower to the blooming lilies and to my surprise, I’ve got their sweet encouragement/s I never thought I’ve received. 

And so to my dry parched emotion rain down river of tears that won’t stop falling just like a visiting rain longed and prayed by the prophet in the Bible. I absorbed like a sponge but still undecided on which road to take but through it all, I feel so blessed to have been showered by roses when I there’s nothing but thorn in both my path and ways. 

So in between sobs and ugly tears is the knowing that my Heavenly Father cares😢😂😄😃


Papa God

I was six (6) years old when my parents brought us along with them to fish. I can still remember how my father carried my handsome brother to the boat first while I was left watching the flow of the waves waiting for my turn. I guess as I looked back, the waves has been so inviting that I failed to wait for my father as the waves almost successfully brought me into the deepest place where we will fellowship forever. To make the long story longer, I drowned. I can still recall how fast the waves carried me and how I felt like a mermaid in the ocean in my red short, stripe shirt, and short kinky hair. When my father went back to where I stood to pick me up, he panicked. How did I know?? He told me and my boyfriend (hahaha). He first went to my grandfathers house thinking I was there.  He looked around. I brought my sweetest mother to tears. They thought they lost me. As always, parents will find ways. They searced me in the vast ocean hoping they would still see me. Thank you Jesus for my kinky hair. My father saw it, grabbed me, turned me upside down so I could vomit the sea water, and probably wanting to console me that everything’s fine when I laughed as if it was the funniest adventure that ever happened. My reaction surprised them as most kids could have been so scared and cried.  I thought we will still go fishing but in their fears we didn’t. And it’s impossible to go the ocean ever since then (hahahaha). Therefore, I lived near the ocean but I can’t swim and I lived in the middle of the forest but I can’t climb a single tree (but I’m totally fine hahaha).

So here’s the lessons I scouted from that experience:

1) We are in Papa God’s Camera 24/7.

Psalms 121:3-4 He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. NIV

2) The devil wants to kill us but Jesus comes to give us life.

John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. NIV

3) Papa God made a plan; no one can thwart His hands.

Isaiah 14:27 For the LORD Almighty has purposed, and who can thwart him? His hand is stretched out, and who can turn it back? NIV

4) We are Papa God’s original creation; we respond & react differrently.

Galatians 5:26 That means we will not compare ourselves with each other as if one of us were better and another worse. We have far more interesting things to do with our lives. Each of us is an original.

The Msg

I can’t think of everything else except that Papa God is truly alive. We have a Papa in Heaven because of Jesus. And, we have the Holy Spirit to help us. Jesus said so.

I guess the enemy wanted to abort me from this life way too early because they could see how a threat I will be in their kingdom. It’s always a threat when I will begin to mention the most wonderful name – JESUS.

So, if you go through the darkest tunnel in your life, it is probably because satan wants to silence you from your praise. Regardless of the darkness, switch on your light, open your mouth and shout with all your might – JESUS.

But I do more than thank. I ask–ask the God of our Master, Jesus Christ, the God of glory–to make you intelligent and discerning in knowing him personally, your eyes focused and clear, so that you can see exactly what it is he is calling you to do, grasp the immensity of this glorious way of life he has for Christians, oh, the utter extravagance of his work in us who trust him–endless energy, boundless strength! All this energy issues from Christ: God raised him from death and set him on a throne in deep heaven, in charge of running the universe, everything from galaxies to governments, no name and no power exempt from his rule. And not just for the time being, but [forever]. He is in charge of it all, has the final word on everything. At the center of all this, Christ rules the church. The church, you see, is not peripheral to the world; the world is peripheral to the church. The church is Christ’s body, in which he speaks and acts, by which he fills everything with his presence. (Ephesians 1:17-23 The Msg)

Jesus Loves You🌻