DON’T LOOK GOOD BROKE

When I was still working in the religious organization,  I was labeled as PASTORA FASHION because of how I dressed up, how I applied make up and of how I accessorized myself.  I also believe that presenting ourselves the best that we can isn’t bad provided that we did it moderately and it will not lead us into debt. 

Today, I still have two pouches of Make Up. I check and notice that there are still a lot that I don’t use and some really needs to be thrown away. 

These are my make up pouches. On the left was given to me by Ter Anne when she and her hubby went to Japan.  On the right was the pouch I purchased two years ago. I loved the design so I bought it out of impulse and not really out of need.

The following are my make up essentials after decluttering:

I keep this for my lips that cracks sometimes but since drinking a lot of water these days has been my habit, it has not recur anymore but I still use this when I am at home. I also apply this on my skin when I get burned out cooking and the oil spills out to my skin. 

I don’t apply day cream but my partner discovered this and it suits me perfectly well. He bought another one for me when were in Pagadian because he thought that the first day cream that he purchased was left in Cebu. That’s what it makes it two.

One night my partner brought his co-workers catalogue from AVON and he asked me to choose whatever I like and I chose this. I love this blush on. It melts on my face and I don’t look like Santa Claus. It comes out naturally on my skin as well.

We saw this at Watsons and the waterproof label  sold me out plus it was on sale. Then I was sweating under the heat of the sun and it melted. It was water proof amd not sweat proof (hahaha). But I will use this until I can consume everything to not waste money.

I got this last year and my lips will only go for Revlon lipstick. It’s quite expensive though but I can save for no allergies plus I got it in 50% sale. I guess, I can still use this for another year.

It has been with me since last year. It is still sharp and I am loving it.

I bought this because I like the picture, it’s so chic but it’s also natural when applied on my face. I purchased this two years ago but I am keeping it for the mirror. I don’t need to buy another mirror but I can save extra for not buying one unless of course if it is going to be broken. Hopefully, not in 10 years (hahaha).

I save this when I go to fast food restaurants and the line is long for handwash. It is still full because I made use of the wash area when we eat outside. But since I am still staying at home, I go for soap and water.

Pepsodent was not my toothpaste then. But I noticed that it’s a lot cheaper.  I only got this for P10.00 while the other toothpaste on this size cost P27.00 to P30.00. I saved money by shopping wisely even for toothpaste.

This pouch is to be given away along with some other make up that I don’t really use. 

And this is my only make up pouch left after tons and tons of make up. 

Some were thrown away because it’s no longer of good use and it will not add value in someone else’s life.

This is still in my pouch even if it has been fully consumed because this was a beautiful gift from my sister from Australia. No more perfume. The smells gone but I so love the color and the design. This reminds me of the love of family, generosity, and the importance of people. This is my thank you perfume. Everytime I see this beauty, I give thanks.

As I am thinking about this, it brings me to Psalm 139:13-17 ESV

13 For you have formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows very well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. 16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.  17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them.

So ladies and gentlemen, you are not your make up essentials. You were loved, valued, and cherished by God Himself even before the world sees you. Way before the ULTRASOUND had been invented, you were cared for by a LOVING FATHER IN HEAVEN. You were naked then but His thoughts for you were precious.

It’s not wrong to have make up but don’t ruin your budget just so you will fit on the image the world of instagram or social media presented to you. Don’t let it be your life pursuit. Start considering what adds value to your life and be content by the love of God through Jesus Christ. 

Now, if you are a make up artist, then buy tons of make up please. That’s business but at the same time that’s your outlet of your creativity. You earn from it and that’s good.

BUT DON’T LOOK GOOD BROKE. Yes, others are so impressed by your appearance but you are deceiving yourself because when you go home and remove all your make up, you are so stressed out of where to borrow money to pay for your kids tuition or how to pay rent because you are so busy impressing the people you don’t know and much more you don’t like. 

Just love you. Do you. Enjoy you and shine in the best you.

Remember, you are lovely even sans make up. 
Have a lovely day💗

Budgeting & Building Together

Who would have thought that on this year we would be tranferring residency? It never came on my mind when I welcomed 2017 but life happens and when it does we just have to LOOK UP and smile at the storm and to even feel better, laugh at it too. What’s on my mind was to tithe, to save, to give, and to spend. I learned about saving for an emergency fund from Rachel Cruze and I was so ignited with it that I shared that to my boyfriend again and again and again until the two of us were so convinced of its importance and so we did. March came and we received a surprise letter from our landlord that there will be an increase of rental in the coming months, motor vehicle were not allowed to park inside the premise and we just have one month to prepare. I could not thank God enough for preparing us way in advance. Had we not saved little by little then we must have been so stressed out with life surprises which by the way is not a surprise to God. We would have been borrowing money from a relative who may give in with side comments that may offend me and I might hate them (hahahaha) or they may refuse who knows. But I’m sure that my sister Cecile won’t but she has helped us way too much again and again and again and I guess  time to be an ADULT (hahaha).  Looking back, I was too sick and my boyfriend tried to borrow money from someone only to be turned down. Worst, he was told over why he chose a sickly woman who don’t eat vegetables. I was hurt then but’s now water under the bridge.

Now, we will be moving to a tiny and temporary house in the mountain top. It will be very slippery when it rains and too rocky and mountainous to climb day and night. I guess, it’s going to be a tiny bare house in the beginning since we don’t have any appliances to begin with but my heart is joyful to have it because of the grace of God. 

Last Sunday, I was lying down in bed thinking at my father’s room with so much pride of the goodness of God. Since the house is build with a deadline to meet, I’ve seen workers giving their strength to build for free. I have seen people giving us finances to start. I’ve witnessed my father, brother, Jason and Hannah worked with us beaming with joy. I have laid my eyes to my man who is the most excited about his first personal project to stand. 

At night, we sat down together budgeting how much is left with our emergency fund and how we can continue with what we have began. We have recorded all of our expenses and we have trusted to a God who will never fail to provide.

Last night my boyfriend expressed his desire for us to have an electricity and my heart broke into pieces when he said “but we have a limited fund.” I console him by saying that we should not despise our new beginnings because if we are faithful now then God can trust us with more. 

Yes, it’s a  small start up but it’s not made in debt. It’s really the Fatherhood of God who taught us to be responsible with our finances and with our lives. 

We build and budget together but we have God in between and that’s where our trust and confidence lies. 

So don’t belittle yourself simply because your life does not match with someone else. You are not called to compete and compare with them rather you are called to be grateful and to be faithful with what you have been given with. In the process, I believe God is building character that grows from glory to glory because that’s when we shine the most and in turn gives Him the glory.  

May God continue to be your corner stone in your building and budgeting together.

It was when we were so set to building the tiny house that the rain poured so hard that we opted to have orange brutus as our best shade:mrgreen::D

While budgeting and thinking and praying for miracles and breakthrough, we blessed our food, thanked the Lord and filled our stomach with sugar and cholesterol so help us God:mrgreen::mrgreen::mrgreen:

Books For My Soul

When Television was so stranged in our home and radio can only be found at our neighbors abode where we sat behind their doors to listen to beautiful dramas, I found my way to entertain myself at a school library and fell in love with books. Books helped me to learn English by just watching at the pictures and went home happily sharing it to my family that the English Term for “kilat” (Cebuano Term) is lightning. My family were so amazed and bragged that I must be so smart and my future must be so bright. 

In the chaos of my soul when I started learning that our family must be born so underprivileged compared to some of my classmates who were the “IT PEEPS” at school, I found books to be my constant mentor in the absence of my mother. I always frequented to Biography section and has allowed those strangers to speak into my life by how they relayed their stories from rags to riches and how they did not allow bitterness to dwell into their soul. I can still remember how I cried in the corner of the school library feeling so encouraged that if others fare well in life because of sheer determination and perseverance, I must have too and that in itself made me a dreamer and ambitious while others believe that where they were must be their fate and they must happily lived with it. True indeed, these people who believed this way were empregnated way too early, married way too young, became a parent way too soon in life and continued to spread a message of “it’s our fate and so let’s live with it.” On the contrary, I am left unmarried, had my first boyfried in my early 30’s, no kids, bloomed in my late 30’s, just learned the value of saving, just enjoying the beauty of serenity brought by the Presence of Jesus, and just started to get a grasp of life reality by the Help of the Holy Spirit. 

As I am standing in between the two paradox of how a person live and view life, I also learned that the way we think matters. Some of my friends in the early days allowed the voices of the people closest to them as their final life reality. They were told that they wey were born poor and they must die poor. They were told that they were destined to live not finishing their studies and become a househelp and that’s where their actions led them. I was told the same way too. While I was so inspired by the lives of people I got strength from for their success through books, I also caught myself hearing the most familiar voices of my relatives who constantly told me that WHY SHOULD YOU TRY TO REACH THE STARS WHEN YOU CAN’T REACH THE STARS?!? YOU ARE DESTINED TO BE POOR AND YOU MUST BE CONTENTED WITH IT. YOUR FACE IS BEST TO BE A HOUSEHELP AND SO YOU MUST LEARN TO ACCEPT IT. THAT THERE’S NO FUTURE FOR SMALL PEOPLE AND SO ON AND SO FORTH.But then again SUCCESSFUL PEOPLE IN THE BOOKS I READ were exactly like me but had a shining future who inspires many. 

I remember how I stood in our school plaza one time and just dream of becoming a MOTIVATIONAL SPEAKER & WRITER. Gosh, people may have fainted had I told them that desires in my heart. 

Fast forward, I graduated College by the grace of God,  became a motivational speaker to various places, offices,  campuses, and churches, and now slowly pave my way into writing. What’s the difference? I associated myself with those successful people I have never met in real life but learned their success stories through books and eventually adopted their attitudes of learning how to plow the way through regardless of how hard life may seemed at the moment because there’s a time that the field will become fertile for victory and success. 

One time, I was just talking to a friend who was trying to go back to school who eventually bursted, I don’t think I’ll make it in our class because my mind has been too rusty. I was infuriated on the inside. You will never be too rusty if you push your way through and read.  And if you are a Christian, your Bible must be your best reading material that must have provided you with wisdom and common sense. And true to what she said, she stopped going to school and does nothing now simply because she believed she can’t.

Friends, do not limit God’s way of shaping you into becoming who God wants you to be. Sure, there will be hardships, trial, and tribulations as you step in faith. Yes, success is not going to be overnight. True that the process will be too painful. But will you trade your VICTORIOUS OUTCOME SIMPLY BECAUSE THE PROCESS IS ROUGH???

Imagine how many young people will be inspired by your story just like how I was definitely encouraged by those successful people I read in the books. And oh, you might not be a book people will eventually read, but you can be an AN INSPIRING BOOK PEOPLE WILL SEE FACE TO FACE.

As Derek Ramsey always said, “LEADERS ARE READERS” so READ. You might not be leading a battalion of people, but friends, you have yourself to LEAD.

Aspire to LEAD YOURSELF WELL BY READING WELL.
A glimpse of my few books that I interacted with for the most parts of my life

Poverty Mentality or Being Wise

Long time ago, I was with a group of people who are prosperity preachers and when we were inside the mall, they made a large purchase and were surprised that I didn’t buy any. For one, I don’t want to go home with a bulky and with a heavy bag and second, buying new stuff for the sake of buying wasn’t in my budget. My attitude towards money must be something new to them but I was starting to feel restless on the inside of me specially when I tried to fit in only to please them. As a result, I was labeled as someone with a POVERTY MENTALITY. I had a hard time understanding that kind of a label then but as I was just thinking about it now, my attitude must have been right.

So how can we know if we have a POVERTY MENTALITY??

1) If we have extra cash but we are still AFRAID to buy because we fear lack. It might be because of the scarcity that we experienced in the past. In a way, it’s understandable but not too commendable because we have allowed money to lord over us instead of us having a hold on our money.

2) If we don’t want to give because we think that we work so hard for what we have saved that others must work as hard as we do. Well, this is true but if we have been working for a long time, we too can attest that our job is a trust from God and without His blessing, we wouldn’t be blessed as where we are now.

Notice something?? Poverty mentality is associated with FEAR and GREED because of a bad experience that brought to poverty and poverty isn’t the best place to be. ASK ME. I WAS THERE. 

On the other hand, not spending money because it’s not on a budget is just BEING WISE. It’s not being wise to pretend living a lifestyle of the rich but cannot sleep at night because of DEBT. That is FOOLISHNESS and the BIBLE teaches us clearly to be wise, to be responsible,  and to be a good steward of our finances, time, job, and etc.

To live within your budget is not dwelling on a poverty mentality, it is just being wise. Saving is just being wise. Generosity is just being wise. On the other hand, spending without thinking simply because of a sermon that God wants us to be rich so we have to  act it out  and the end result is DEBT, that’s foolishness. 

So be let’s be wise regardless of the label. Let’s be a good steward of our finances. God give us the brain so we could think well, not so we could squander His trust. At times, God speaks to us in His gentle voice and instruct us to give what we have saved and it does not make sense to our brain, but when it does happened, LET’S GIVE because what He is about to bless us with is far larger than what we have saved.

In 2017, let’s learn to save but let’s enjoy giving like how He gave His Son Jesus to us so we will be saved from our sins.

Have a lovely Monday💟

The Power Of A Notebook And A Pen

The month of January is almost over and as I am reviewing my goals, I could see that a goal which is specific and is clearly written on paper and is seen everyday will really come to pass. 

I don’t know with all of you but everytime I write something on paper with a timeline, I just know that I will have to do it or else, it will bother me or it will make me restless. It also helps when a written goal is specific and realistic because if it’s too much, it will become a major disappointment. 

So for me it’s the following:

1) Save P ____ every month. Although the amount that I set aside for the month did not really match, I am glad that we have saved this month. 

2) Meditate one winning Scripture and one quotation. I did. The good thing about this is that, I have allowed a verse to take root in my heart. I am not overwhelmed. I am not pressured to read the Scripture for the sake of reading and in the name of religion. And this works well for me. 

3) Post 2 Blogs per week. Definitely. Sometimes it is more than 2 because I’ve got thoughts and in order not to forget it, I wanna write it and if there is still an internet connection, publish it.

4) Read one success book in a year. I have started reading the rich dad poor dad but I felt that I have to read Rachel Cruze book on Love Your Life Not Theirs and I am still saving for it. I have not visited any bookstores as of yet, I probably will when I have enough cash to purchase that book. 

5) Finish the Laundry that has been there in my boyfriends cabinet by December 2017. I started to wash it by 5 per week so it will really zero down by December God willing and hopefully even before the year ends.

6) Be Thankful All The Time. I write down my Praise and Thanksgiving to Jesus everyday or once a week. I have not joined the negativity specially in social media and I am trying to be more mindful of my blog to inspire many. 

7) Pray Everyday – I just assigned what to pray for everyday so nothing will overwhelm me.

MONDAY – Workplace, Teammates, Performance, Bosses

TUESDAY – Family -Mine and My Love 

WEDNESDAY – Friends 

THURSDAY – Local Church/Quest Fellowship, Volunteers,  Pastors

FRIDAY – Philippines, President, Leaders

SATURDAY – Israel 

SUNDAY – Healing For Those Who Are Sick

So everyday I check my beautiful journal and just do what I write. It gives me so much peace and personal fulfillment when I am doing what I wrote down on paper.

How’s your January so far???

This is a gift I receive from Cher Lorianne and I so love this💗

Social Media & Me 

There was no doubt that I was so into social media. I was once a Facebook addict at the same time a paranoid Christian who hit people who are not at par with my opinion. When I have an ill feeling towards a brother and a sister in Christ, I used it as my platform to pour out my emotions but was too coward to follow what Jesus said, and that is if I am offended by someone else, I should go to that person and settle the offenses privately. It was not me. There were times too that I gave my unsolicited advice to people, appearing to be too intellectual about almost everything but cranky, bitter, and toxic to be around with. 

I should say that hitting someone in these platform, is the best version of a COWARD and I am talking about myself. I was complaining about everyone’s poisonous posts without realizing that many has died with what I posted myself. 

My two years of hiatus away from the mob or from the ministry to be exact without an Internet connection and without a tablet nor a smart phone gave me a realization that I was once a toxic silent journalist of my own while at the same time eating toxic feeds from bitter people too. 

Last year was a lightbulb that generally opened my eyes to a passion that I should not have. It was one morning when I just reported to work when a co-worker who really respected me a lot told me that I must be a DUTERTARDS. There is no doubt that I love the Philippine President but to be told a DUTERTARDS more than a JESUS FANATIC convicted my way of using social media as a whole. I smiled with my colleague’s genuine observation but I silently repented for my inability to increase the fame of JESUS more than any other man or woman on earth. As John in the Bible said, Let JESUS increase, and I decrease. I repented for using my talent to write to boast about someone I don’t know and who has no idea about my existence on this earth.

On the other hand, there were times too that I felt like I have a high blood pressure from all the feeds of negative people who hit others on Facebook. I get pissed off of people showing off what they possessed but are too lonely and swearing in real life. I get tired of me posting verses on my wall but I don’t have the fruit of the Holy Spirit to match. In the same way that I am tired of too much religiosity, pretensions, the know it alls, the Pharisees, hypocrites,  and so much more. If I look at it closely, that just describes me more than anyone else. 

This year, I made a decision to use my social media for a good cause. On the other hand, I unfollow a lot of people on Facebook because their posts will just cause irritations to my heart and my emotions will bubble up until it swirl to my failure to control myself or to listen to the Holy Spirit and I will start hitting the people I know and even with those whom I don’t know. I also removed my twitter app because I’ve got too much information but I lacked application. By now, I use these platforms to hopefully stir up good vibes in the lives of people and eventually may those who will read it will have a relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ as well. 

I just realized that my writings will one day be read by my own children and their children’s children and I hope to leave a legacy of positivity and faith in this negative world. If today’s generation is too negative already,  then how much more in the years to come. 

And since I unfollow a lot of people but still remain as friends, it makes my life so at peace too. I don’t get to read hypocrisy and no fake photos to watch. I guess, we mastered to be too plastic these days to impress the people we don’t know but hit the people who matters most to us in private because we become so uneasy with what we just feed ourselves in the process. 

In return, I also don’t want to waste the talent that God has given me by participating trash talks while at the same time claiming to be a follower of Jesus. I don’t want to be too religious with my lips but too hypocrite with my walk. I don’t want to post all the HALLELUJAHS on my wall while cursing someone on a private conversation. I don’t want to copy and paste verses but my heart is so unaffected by His Word in real life.

I love social media but I hope that from this year and forward, it will just radiate nothing but faith and positivity. That one day when my children will be reading it, they too will be inspired to walk on their dreams, win in life, laugh in good times and bad, and trust in the Lord Jesus Christ.

Your life does not get better by CHANCE, it gets better by CHANGE ~ JIM ROHN~

The UNIVERSE Is Aware

One of my epic fails in life is that I give up when I am almost at the end of the summit. The voice of “WHAT IF” will cross in my mind a thousand times again and again and this chit chat became so big that it conquers me and eventually my fight to win for my dreams. I will never forget of my previous employment experience and how I unethically left and lose my demeanor of grace and respect simply because I entertained uninvited guests chit chatters in my head. 

Truth be told, underneath my bad exit was my fear of not being endorsed. Those fears where boiled all the more when I surrounded myself with complainers and without me knowing it, I sipped the toxic kind of coffee called GOSSIP and I went home so guilty of an action I never expected myself will do but I did. 

Fast forward, when I surrendered once again to Someone greater than myself, something on the inside of me gently says, “GOD IS AWARE.” He is aware of the best job ahead of me. He knows the best year I will be engaged. He has the best career for me with my name on it. He has me in the palm of His hands. He knows the danger ahead and He already charged His angels concerning me to protect me in all my ways. It was when I leaned on and trusted that the Universe has nothing but my good that slowly the layers of fears has been broken down until I just wake up and constantly say, God you are aware of my TODAY and I thank you that You have cleared the path for me and for my loved ones. This has been a great released for me and instead of waking up afraid of what’s to come,  I wake up EXPECTANT that the UNIVERSE has my back and the destiny that He has for me will SURELY come to pass. 

So, when my training took a little longer,  and when I heard a little negative chit chat on the side, In silence I sigh in TRUST that whatever the outcome will be, either I get endorsed or not, the EXPERIENCE makes me a better person and the months gave me the opportunity to SHINE because of His Glory. In Psalm it says, GOD’S GLORY, MAN’S DIGNITY. Yes, His Glory in my life has DIGNITY as my beautiful side effects. By just trusting in His ways, I GOT ENDORSED, NO SWEAT. Let’s just put it this way: His BLOOD, my FAVOR. 

So, when the voice of uncertainty knocks my head, I sigh in HOPE and gently declare to the UNIVERSE my prayer and say “LORD, YOU AE AWARE AND I TRUST THAT IT’S NOTHNG BUT FOR MY GOOD.”

That simple prayer gives me so much peace. And when the knock becomes so violent, I reminded myself of how I was born totally poor but He fed me. How I lost my mother on my birthday when I was 10 but He nourished me. How I drowned in the ocean and gone for 30 minutes but He has saved me through my father. How I fainted under the banana tree out of hunger when I was 11 and He strengthened me. How I lost all the people I thought I have poured out my life more than my family but He made His loyalty and unfailing love more evident to me. How I was down in debt and it looks like there’s no way out but He taught me stewardship to even knowing how to save. How I was being bullied to be so UGLY and SHORT to being so Favored, loved and valued wherever I go. How I was I was teased to never have a boyfriend and husband because of a natural ugliness to have been blessed with a boyfriend who worships JESUS, prayed to Him and for me and values my PURITY. How I was prophesied to be a “HOUSEHELPER” forever to becoming a PROFESSIONAL TEACHER, WRITER, SPEAKER and MORE TO COME. How I was a BITTER woman with no one would like to ever be around me to a sweet blooming lady and impacting people for eternity.

Yes, God is aware and when we Surrender and just trust in His ways, it’s going to be a journey with a beautiful story that will GIVE HIM THE GLORY.

So, trust Him. 

Trust, that the UNIVERSE HAS YOUR BACK.