Sweetness In His Bones

I had been given the privileged to visit my boyfriend’s root this week and truth be told, I have so much to write that I don’t know where to start. I had been wanting to put everything in writing so one day when I will be 88 years old, I can look back and I  can proudly exclaimed over how blessed of a woman I am and yes, everything started when I said yes to Jesus. 

So I landed in their beautiful City called Pagadian because my boyfriend’s sister sponsored our fare, food, and everything in between. Fen, if you are reading this, thank you very much for not just sending your brothers back home. How sweet of you to include us (Me and Hannah) to witness our sister’s graduation. 

Again, I have so much in my heart to say but let me just express it one blog at a time. 

So let’s start with my boyfriend’s natural sweetness💟

That’s him and his grandmother. He always mentioned his grandma to me and when he saw her, he hugged her, bless her and just showed his affection towards her. I stood watching and tears flowed like a mighty river. Then he brought her to the dining area, feed her, took care of her, served her exactly like how he serves me when it is just the two of us together. I could not stop thanking Jesus again and again and again for gving me the sweetest man in the world. Not only that, we visited his grandmother’s home and told me where he came from and how he was taken cared of when he was a child. When it’s time to eat, he always go to lola’s house (grandma’s house)to  pick her up so she could eat well with us.

So I was following them while they were holding hands with my shade, tablet and umbrella crying. It was such a delight to watch. This time, he forgot his profession as an Engineer and instantly became the best grandson in the world. The man whom Jesus has blessed me with is such an extraordinary man with a heart that shines brightly than gold. He is such a gem from heaven. He seldoms talk about faith but his life is an expression of Jesus in this earth. 

********************************************************I had been praying to have a Godly man when I was 8 years old and hopefully gets married when I was 28 but when I turned 28 and the man did not come along, I kneeled down to Jesus and cried why it took so long. I waited and waited and held on to His promise that “HE HAS PREPARED SOMEONE SPECIAL FOR ME”. I was called names for not having a boyfriend but friends, when Jesus packaged it, it may take a long time in our time table, but the WAIT IS WORTH IT AFTER ALL. Behind the waiting was a man molded into becoming like Jesus Christ who will eventually treats me like Royalty, a Princess who was slowly molded into becoming like Christ.

And my love story started when I first said yes to Jesus. May you all out there try Jesus. May you all experience the Father’s heart for you In Christ💕

Jesus is indeed the sweetest and He give me His sweetest in this world. 

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The Power Of A Generous & Praying Boyfriend

So last Saturday, my boyfriend had a company outing & I am glad that he has the time of his life just for himself regardless if he is with the same people. I am happy for their company’s decision to have some fun as well. 

I too has been given the privilege to meet with my bestfriend’s husband, name I will withheld to avoid much questions (hahaha). But, what really touches my heart was my boyfriend’s surprise gift for me -his way of letting me know that he was thinking about me while he was away. 

At dawn too when the motorcyle reach my workplace where he brings me every morning, he laid his hands on me trusting me to Jesus that His power will be enough to cover my shortcomings, my weaknesses, and my hormones (hahahaha).

As we have been together for 6 beautiful years, the gold in him continues to increase in it’s karat. His character shines brighter & brighter enough to remind me that the long wait was really worth it. 

Looking back, I was told by my churchmates that my boyfriend is nice is just that he does not have the money to marry me right away. I was hurt but I stayed not because I was desperate to have a boyfriend but because I knew deep in my heart that he is Jesus choice for me. 

Ruth Bell Graham once replied when interviewed that she would rather have her husband partime than having someone else fulltime. I’ve got the same answer. I would rather have my man than being with someone who has so much but is not trusting in Jesus.

By now, God has been faithful and we see His faithfulness for both in our lives. 

My prayerful boyfriend💗

My boyfriend’s generosity💗

Valentines On A Budget 

So today is Monday and I was thinking in the night before that I will have to wake up early to do laundry. I did but I am not hammering clothes, rather I am up with my greatest coffee in my beautiful mug, smell the beauty of dawn and tinker my tab. You see, I am always up at dawn for work and by virtue of being a thinker, Tuesday is coming and I have to keep saying thank you for calling, not to mention the quality of calls to consider plus the AHT, and my supervisor even said that I have to work on my pronunciation, so help me God. 

And yes, I will be working on a Day of Hearts but I know that I will be seeing flowers here and there in the arms of beautiful ladies and probably in the flood of chocolates in purses or in boxes everywhere. I would like to say that romance is good but to have a happy hormones in a just day is not a good ground for a lasting relationship. For one, it may break someone elses budget, probably becoming a romantic one day millionaire but scratching a bald head even before the 15th day.

I told my boyfriend that we don’t need to be extravagant this Valentines because I have experience a deep kind of love with him on a daily basis. I am well respected, honored,  cherished, loved, protected, and prayed for everyday. I am wonderfully blessed. And he is blessed with me too by my antic jokes and boisterous laughter when I am in the best mood. And he gets so use to my beast mode too. Oh well, my silliness makes him thinks that I am the best woman in the world. Opps, Fenelyn, if you are reading, you remains to be his number one but since you are in Canada so you are still his number one. Hahahaha.

So here’s to a simple but meaningful Valentines:

1) Cook for your girlfriend/boyfriend her/his fave meal. In our case, I always volunteer to wash the dishes but cooking isn’t my cup of tea so being his partner in the ketchin is a teamwork to be treasured. I can always admire him for his passion for cooking and how lovely the meal turns out to be with him by my side. 

2) Write Love Letters to Your Significant Others. Being a writer, I always do that for him but promise, the letters that he gave me way back was so beautiful to cherish with his unique handwriting in it. I love how the ink melted on the cards and how those wonderful words melted my hearts up until this day. It just reminds me of how great this man is and how he becomes greater and greater as days and months and years went by.

3) Listen. Yes. It does not need a cent to show your spouse or boyfriend or girlfriend their value. Give them your undivided attention. Listen with the excitement of your eyes and with the attentiveness of your ears. You have no idea how romantic it could be most specifically to ladies. 

5) Say I Love You Personally. Don’t text it. Don’t call and say it over the phone. Make it so personal. Tell her or him how a blessing she or he in your life. And to those who have the love language of affirmation? ? That’s a ticket to a happy year and a joyful love life. 

6) Pray For Your Significant Others. Every day my boyfriend take me to work and when I get out from his motor bike, he will lay his hands on me and prayed that I will have the best day at work. You have no idea over how it made me so secure to report to work and face whatever is at stake because I know that I am being prayed. I always report with my close up smile regardless of my yellowish teeth because I am so sure that God hears his prayers over me. 

So to people out there who is so overwhelmed on what to give to your someone special, worry no more. It’s not your one day of sweetness that makes a difference but it’s how you make your significant other feel so loved and valued with or without occassions. 

But if you feel that you can’t relate because you are not in a relationship, then think of someone whom you would like to feel honored and loved this Valentines. You may wanna treat the street kids to Jollibee and see their happy smile and genuine thank you. I used to do that way back and it always reminds me of how blessed I am to have been given the opportunity to love those who can’t believe that love still exists.

My gosh?!? How come I just know about this?? Hahahaha

When Will You Have A Boyfriend?!?

This is February and LOVE IS IN THE AIR as people say. We hear it from the radio. Watch it on TV. In fact, worst these days is being able to watch these teenagers doing some kissing scene with their boyfriend and girlfriend and everyone is saying it’s okay in the name of drama. Thankfully, in my time, I grew up with no TV and all the radio drama can just be formulated in my imaginations. And in my imaginations are marriages that last for a lifetime. The couple who love each other and bring their children to the church. Etc. Etc.

Then I came to the City to search for a scholarship so I can study and my mind was opened to the reality.  People related your identity to being IN A RELATIONSHIP. If you are NOT, then you are UGLY. But, I knew then that I was because that’s what my neighbors told me. I WAS AND AM UGLY:mrgreen: But, I don’t believe this label anymore. I AM WONDERFULLY AND BEAUTIFULLY MADE BY GOD. No more. No less.

I tried to prove myself showing that I am a woman with worth even without a boyfriend. I studied so hard. Then I happened to join a CHRISTIAN ORGANIZATION. There, I participated in their activities and I was in the THEATER MINISTRY where I made people laugh. People thought that I am funny and being so celebrated I tried to be a people person and continued to make people laugh even if it saps my energy. That started the DAY WHEN I BECOME SOMEONE ELSE JUST SO I FIND MY WORTH.

And I turned into my late 20’s. People who worshipped Jesus wondered why I did not have a boyfriend. They said no one probably will like me because I am too short and ugly. In fact, I remember a visiting church from Manila with so many delegates and there was this guy who seemed to have interest on me and finally a very spiritual matured woman told him don’t because I am too short and how pitiful our children might be. OUCH!!!! These are ladies who worshipped God in public but are way too mean. I became way too bitter and I can’t rejoice to those who have a boyfriend much more to those who are married.

I silently cried. But I remember what the Holy Spirit told me in my heart, “I HAVE PREPARED SOMEONE SPECIAL FOR YOU.” That was the best relief. HIS PROMISE. Then I learned that my tongue has the power over life and death. So when people asked me, when will you have a boyfriend, I just answered that GOD HAS PREPARED SOMEONE SPECIAL FOR ME. I said that over and over and over again until they will get tired of asking me WHEN.

So to everyone out there who are being pressured by peers in order to have a boyfriend, HERE ARE MY UNSOLICITED TIPS:

1) BE CONVINCED THAT YOUR WORTH IS IN CHRIST. Jesus was the ONLY ONE who shed His blood for you because He loves you even before you said YES to Him. He went through Hell for you so Heaven will be yours. He is the best boyfriend ever. I promise you. I enjoyed my single life when I discover that life isn’t about RELIGION but your RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS CHRIST. The rest are just bonus but HE IS THE ULTIMATE BEST.

2) CELEBRATE YOU. People may label you as ugly, short, bitter, unlovable, etc.and that’s fine. Why? Because they only make a judgment about you out of what they perceived you to be but GOD ACCEPTED YOU AS YOU and that’s what matters most. Don’t become like someone else in order to be celebrated. Remember this quote? IT IS BETTER TO BE HATED FOR WHO YOU ARE THAN TO BE LOVED FOR WHO YOU ARE NOT.” I was there. I was having a horror kind of life by playing a dual personality just to appreciated. Become the best version of yourself because it is when you are authentic that the best YOU SHINES OUT.

3) APPRECIATE AND ENHANCE YOUR PHYSICAL SELF. It’s true that I am short and people may think that I am ugly but NO ONE CAN CONQUER SOMEONE WHO BELIEVES IN THEMSELVES. In the process of being belittled, I learned to present myself well in public and as I valued myself, I find that people valued me as well. 

4) HAVE FUN. Don’t take life too seriously simply because you don’t have a boyfriend. Learn to laugh. Be gentle with yourself. Enjoy being around peple and celebrate others as well. It is when you are relatable that people start noticing how wonderful you are as a person. 

5) GET BUSY WHILE WAITING FOR GOD’S SPECIAL BEST IN YOUR LIFE. Your life should not stop simply because you are not in a relationship with someone else. Find a good cause to join or get involve in your Local Church. Visit the sick people in the hospital and pray for them. Be generous. Be a friend. Finish your masters perhaps and excel in your craft. Dream and start doing it. Remember that beautiful people are those who keeps on dreaming and doing their dreams. They are the ONE’S who shine the most. 

6) DON’T MIND WHAT PEOPLE SAID. Take note that the bashers remain to be bashers behind their mouth and probably their computer’s screen but if you focus on what God want’s you to do, it’s you who will succeed in life. How will I know? I was there. I’ve seen those who bashed me in the past and still bashed me now but aren’t progressing but I also know that KINDNESS IS ALWAYS THE BEST REVENGE. 

Those are just few of them. 

So, if you are not in a relationship as of yet and people are bashing you, SMILE AND KEEP BELIEVING FOR YOUR BEST. GOD has His best for you in mind. And when you are in a relationship with JESUS CHRIST, then you must be in the BEST STATE KIND OF LIFE.

Don’t be pressured by the people around you. Take it as a challenge to MAKE YOUR DREAM COME TO LIFE AND ONE DAY WHEN YOU HAVE YOUR BEST, inspire other girls or boys to learn to wait for the best.

Taken when we had our vacation with my boyfriend’s family in Leyte💗

Mad Day But Madly Loved

I am a very motivated woman until Rest Day comes. For me, rest day is my lazy day when I don’t need to wake up at 2am and if I’ll do, I download nice content from You Tube and just have the best time of my life enjoying the time. This is the moment when I will savor my coffee without putting a time frame and just HUG THIS DAY CALLED REST DAY. This is how I re-charge from all the pressures at work. I don’t talk. I just enjoy the stillness at dawn. Sometimes, I grab my beautiful journal, write down my thoughts, meditate my verse for the month, blog, or just do nothing. 

So today, I lounge in bed and absorb the silence that I could definitely find until I heard my ever sweet boyfriend in all his good vibes and bubbly spirit wanting me to hurry up for church. The more I heard him talking, I was so infuriated that I stood up, took a bath and in my anger for being disturb from the time I allotted for myself, I unbelievably broke my hard to bend toothbrush. I was so mad!!!

And so we went to church and arrived there late while I brought my bad attitude with me. I listened to the pastor but I crossed my hand when the band ended it with a nice song of The Best Is Yet To Come. I just know deep within me that I need to get real with the Lord in a room with just me and Him. Yes, I love going to church but I also hate religiosity. 

My boyfriend remained calm all throughout, smiled the sweetest but my mind was just racing home. All I know is that I want to really re-charged from the pressures of the week and there’s no place that can cater it except HOME. 

So in my MAD DAY, my boyfriend held my hand and just simply said, 

“My Love, even if your hormones will strike you so badly, even if there are days that I can’t understand you, I will continue to love you as you are.”

And my tears fell like rivers and my heart shouted with so much thanks to the LORD who must have fulfilled His promise when He spoke in my heart in 1996 that He has prepared someone special for me. I was 17 years old then and 15 years later, when I was 32, I met the most amazing man in my life. It took a little longer than expected but to be in alignment with Heaven’s Calendar is way better than the time I have in my mind.

I could still remember how I gave up my list of what I wanted in a guy when I started to get to know Jesus and surrendered my love life to Him while allowing Him to choose the best for me. I so believe that He really did and He gave me with more than I deserve. 

He was singing Heavenly songs while doing home chores.

As I was given the time of my life to just sit down to reflect and be quiet, I ask forgiveness from my Father in Heaven who knew me even before I was born and instead of being condemned, I could only feel the liquid kind of love that melted my selfishness away.
So in my Mad Day, I felt so Madly Loved by My Father In Heaven, Jesus, Holy Spirit and from the man who represents Jesus in my life so well💟

Regardless of how your day feels like today, His unfailing love for you will never change. It’s just gets proven to be so tangible in your worst time. 

5TH ANNIV & COUNTING

January 20th marked the fifth year anniversary for me and my boyfriend and we have been so thankful of the journey that God has allowed us to walk on together. 

The relationship started way back when during our church activity,  I saw that he had a classy camera and he took so many pictures for all of us that I figured that he should add me in at Facebook and tagged me for all my pictures. We were so thin then and he was not my type being so white and was terribly shy who only smiled but seldom talked.

This was how white and thin he was when we started as friends and this was the place where we had our church activity. This was at Genesis Valley in Pit-os Talamban Cebu City I guess (Hopefully this is correct information) because it was too long ago already.

And I was always thin, having a tired and happy eyes, and oh how I miss my long and straight hair too. I wanna have my hair rebonded but I am already working now and I don’t want all the attention that I will be getting for having a new hair so I will not do anything with my hair now (hahahaha).

And these were my Bible Study and church friends.

There were a lot of us but it will take so much time checking the photos. Majority in these photo were new babes in Christ. So precious children of God.

True enough, after the activity were over, he added me on Facebook and tagged me for all my photos. He initially chatted me on messenger and I respectfully responded because I cannot be mean to new people at church. Newbies were my assignment then and I could not lose anyone of them so I have no choice but to force myself to be kind even if I don’t want to (confession time for being a real kind of fake minister, sorry). 

Being single then and having an assigned car to drive, I stayed in the church even until midnight because the internet connection were so high and I can you tube and chat all I want. True enough, at midnight hour, when I was about to go home, the gate was locked and I can’t get out. The gate was so hard to open and having my skinny figure, very underweight to be exact, I don’t have enough power to open it and drove back home. I was so happy because I had an excuse to stay in the church and Facebook with all I want. I was a Facebook and Joel Osteen addict then. However, when I went back to the office, he send me a message so I thought that it would be best to answer him having all the high internet connection that I wanted. I told him that I was stucked in the church premises alone and he offered to opened the gate for me. I did not believe in him so I just jokingly answered why not?? I thought that he was just joking like everyone else who had been so used to have me stayed in the church. Fifteen minutes later, I heard the church buzz sounded and when I went down, viola, it was him. I suddenly believe that he was a man of his word and he must be a good match to my single friends then (hahahaha). 

After that short kind of personal encounter apart from our weekly Bible Study, he texted me every 4 o’clock in the morning and asked if I could be his bestfriend. And since he helped me, I would be very ungrateful if I refused. He would always told me how he would be so sad if one day I will have a boyfriend and we can’t eat out and laughed together. I feel the same way too but I thought that he was not interested on me so I did not assumed anything. That’s always the sermon of our Pastor to single ladies, “Don’t assume that a guy likes you simply because they are nice to you or give you flowers and chocolates. Accept what they give but don’t fantasize because they might borrow money from you as their motive or ask you as bridge to know someone else.” Ouch!!!!

Our friendship grew and we were officially in a relarionship on the 20th of January. We let our relationship flourished and we kept quiet but being a leader in the church, we could not hide it any longer. We told our Pastor and to my embarrasment, he announced it to the whole congregation during every service. There I realized that I hated to be the center of attention. How I wanted to be invisible but he was a man enough to face the heat of the moment and so gracious to stand when asked to. Everyone knew him. Everyone liked him. Everyone asked how in the world will I ever have the kindest boyfriend being fully known as strong woman, old being in my 30’s, short, and not so physically beautiful.  Yes. Someone asked me that! Promise. It stirred up the rest of the single ladies to believe of their own forever.

On our First year, he was my personal body guard and personal assistant while I was his personal driver too (hahahaha).

Fast forward until our fifth year, I learned how wonderful of a gentleman he is and how he grew to become a wonderful leader to me and for others. He is a firm man but so peaceful and content that his personality rubbed off on me. He is a happy kind of guy who makes me laugh. He is a peaceful man who meets a perfect melancholy woman and that makes a perfect temperament match. 

This year I told him that he does not need to buy me gift knowing that we will be saving a big amount of money monthly. 

I surprised him with this gift. I did not spend anything for this but he find it to be so cute and sweet coming from a not so sweet girlfriend that I am. 

To make it more beautiful, he bought a small cake to match it. On this picture,  I already eaten half of it (Hahahaha).

And in all those five years, we held on each other when we were in the valley and gain some weight in the process too.

Glory to God for our Happy 5th and counting. 

And as I am writing this, I figured that Jesus is a perfect match maker if we  only TRUST IN HIM. 

💑

Vibe Is Contagious

​Looking back, specifically last year, I was like an untamed horse whose becoming wild with my thoughts, Having been in prisoned in saying my personal convictions, I felt like I have all the freedom to just say whatever I wanted to say in excuse of being real. After all, I know that Jesus loves me and His mercy is new every morning. But, with God’s mercy and love comes responsibility and if He really love me, I suppose that I should be a carrier of His vibes in my walk, talk, and write. While I did not sat down in a comfy chair at a coffee shop to evaluate myself, I know first hand that there were countless nights that I had been reminded of my reactive posts on social media and how it could have been avoided if I think before I click.
This year, in line to my new minimalistic approach in life and of course with the Touch and Help of the Holy Spirit, I want to be a carrier of Jesus vibes. 
Jesus, wherever He went, people flocked to Him because His presence was attractive. With Jesus, people will go home full and not hungry. The sick will be healed. The insecure will find healing in His presence. The crazy person became whole and turned out to be His evangelist without training.  His life was simple. He did not live in a mansion but He was oozing with confidence and gave so much love because He knew who He was. Yes, Jesus was God, is God and will always be, but He became a man, was a man, and literally walked on this earth and could feel the joys and pains of humanity. He was not just a teacher and preacher but He was a perfect example of walking the talk.
As I reflected from my own way of walking in this life, I realized that I have been a preacher without the fruit of the Holy Spirit to match. I have been a writer who sometimes write in the impulse of the flesh instead of the leading of the Holy Spirit. 
I want my 2017 to be different and that’s why I just endeavor to write twice a week during my rest days or more if there’s an internet connection available and if I have a ready post to publish. I will only be using my social media to ignite positive vibes in people’s lives and hopefully the readers will have something to take home as a thought to win as they continue to learn as I do. 
In saying, I had not been posting my comments to the government’s opposition. There were days that I was almost tempted because I admire the President but my job is to pray for him instead. If I have to be loyal, it has to be on the Lord Jesus Christ who is eternal. There were times this month that I wanna blast people because of what I felt as a show off post but in reality it isn’t but I am reminded with what the Holy Spirt taught me before the year ends. 
He said: 

Mind God. 

Mind Me.

Love People.
Even last night, I was tempted to type and click my feelings with the motive of hitting someone because I felt that he is just motivated by greed. But after 20 minutes, I was convicted that it’s not suppose to be posted in the social media platform. It’s not Jesus style. Jesus wasn’t moved by people’s opinion but by the instruction of His Father. He did not take time in answering His critics rather He kept quiet and mind His very reason of why He was on earth. So, I deleted my long post and hopefully it was not being screened shot. You see, I am still growing in this area as well but it was a great first move already. The Holy Spirit must have been working really hard so I will be convicted and I will get back to my God goal espcially in regards to posting in social media.
I believe that regardless as to whether we see each other or not, our posts reflects our vibes and the vibes we carry is contagious. My hope and prayer is that, as social media journalists, we will start to break the bandwagon of negativity by being a carrier of Jesus vibes and let it ripple down to our home, community, and the workplace. I know that it’s hard and difficult but let us take it one day at a time. Let’s accept the #PositiveVibesChallengePost. We don’t necessarily post verses because posting scriptures without a changed life is saying yes to ritual and religion. It is very impressive from a distance but it’s not giving an impact up close. We can still get real but remails positive like Jesus do.
May all of you is doing well in your life and career and let’s carry on “JESUS VIBES.”
Have A Blessed Day Everyone🏃