I Don’t Feel Like

This is just one of those days that my feelings would like to subdue my decision making. I don’t feel like going to the interview. I don’t feel like eating breakfast even if I can literally hear the sound of music in my stomach (tapz hahaha). I don’t feel like taking risks no matter how many youtube I watch of Pia Wurtzbach for encouragement (hahaha) but I feel like settling to where I am because comfort is far easier than adventure. I don’t feel like blogging even there’s this still small voice that says “be faithful in little things.” Feelings!!! But, if I will follow in this feeling, then, who I am now will be the same me when this year ends and in all actuality, I don’t like what I am seeing now. Although my identity isn’t in how much I am making. It’s not in my status. It’s not in how dolled up I look.  It’s not in the car I drive (not owning a car now hahaha). It’s not in the house I live. And it’s not in the people I am associated with. I know that it’s definitely in Jesus Christ. Yet, when Jesus was here on earth, He never settled. He risked His life. He walked in far flung places to heal people and give people hope. He’s firm with His convictions but kinder to many who simply trusts Him in their complete abandon away from fear but all out confidence in Him. His life has meaning because it’s never about Him but it’s for everyone to have hope now and the life to come. His joy is bringing glory to the Father, forsaking His luxurious position in heaven, coming down on earth, even to the point of death.

I guess the greatest motivation in life is a life dedicated to live like Jesus.

Matthew 20:28 That is what the Son of Man has done: He came to serve, not be served–and then to give away his life in exchange for the many who are held hostage.” The Msg

Work will have meaning because the motivation is to help. Finances has somewhat of value because it isn’t just for self indulgent but to share. Relationship becomes meaningful because it’s no longer on the basis self exaltation but in making sure that regardless of education, class, religion, race, every individual matters.

It’s always like that in the eyes of Jesus. And, as we get intimate with Him, we in turn see that people are not objects to reach our goals but God’s masterpiece so beautiful to serve.

So, what am I feeling now???

I feel that this precious life and my gifts isn’t for me to feed my ego but for me to be an expression of Jesus love. I hope I always have this feeling for keeps regardless of circumstances.

Always remember that:

Have a blessed #jochiliciousday to all of you💙

Jesus Loves You🌻

FEELINGS, NOTHING MORE THAN FEELINGS

The rain pours. The atmosphere’s cold. The bed’s inviting.

And I personally feels tired and lethargic. I don’t wanna get up besides no one’s looking my To Do List anyway. I don’t feel like praying. I don’t feel like praying in tongues. I don’t feel buying food for breakfast. I don’t feel like washing the plates. I don’t feel like eating breakfast. I don’t feel like cleaning the house. I don’t feel like writing for the blog. I don’t feel like reading the Bible besides no one’s checking on it. I don’t feel like brushing my teeth as I woke up, besides I am just staying at home. I don’t feel like doing the push ups. I don’t feel like following my 21-Day Challenge. I don’t feel like thanking God for my dreams and goals. I don’t feel like doing anything.I just wanna give up and be like anybody else.

Everything I feel is simply to get back to sleep or just stay in bed doing nothing. But I know from experience that feelings lies and anything done out from feelings will not get me anywhere. Following my feelings will just make me regret at the end of the day and all these are just pure deception by satan. Satan knows that when I wake up and praises God that I torment him back to hell and so he tries to convince me to do something totally different and something totally enticing. Bed is inviting when it’s too cold early in the morning. But satan is a liar. His voices are lies.

So I get up and speak the verses over me. I speak to my dreams and goals. I prayed for all the prayer request I have on my list. I read my Bible. I prayed in tongues. I wash the plates. I buy food and medicine for my father. I do the push up for myself. I do almost everything I put on my list and I am just so fulfilled on the inside.

Thank you Jesus. His grace has been sufficient over me and His power has been made perfect in my weakness.

So how about you?

Do you feel like quitting the habits that will lead you to your success?

Do you feel like following your feelings the most?

Then that’s the sign that you are the doing the right thing and satan wants you to give up.

Isaiah 60:1

ARISE (from the depression and prostration in which circumstances have kept you – rise to a new life)! Shine (be radiant with the Glory of the Lord) for your light has come and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you. (AMP)

So, arise from your feelings that will snatch you away from the dreams that God has placed in your heart.

Today Called Beautiful

Hey. Did you ever experienced like waking up in the wrong side of the bed? That in every corner you can’t seem to help but get irritated and get mad? I do. Many times. People scratched me to death. Life in general sucks. There is nothing pretty. There is nothing to be admired. Everything is unfair. I was forced to work on something I don’t like to do. I was obligated to be the me that I am not. But that was water under the bridge now. When all there was of me was to get out proving my worth.

Today is different. Today is a product of my prayers long time ago. When I am given the opportunity to wake up without rushing to get back to work. When I can walk slowly and being able to see how beautiful the green trees are dancing in the rhythm of the wind. When I can breathe with the breeze that slowly touching my face making my hair flow in slow motion like we see in the movies. When I take a look in the rice bins and I don’t need to go and knock Papa Tony’s door to have  a handful of corn for all of us to eat. When I don’t have to take refuge under the shade of the banana leaves because I am about to faint out of hunger. When I am about to take a bath and Mr. Clean is no longer my shampoo. When I am about to walk and blessed enough to have a pair of beautiful and colorful sleepers that don’t have holes in it. When I have to check at my closet and see beautiful and colorful dresses and I don’t have to borrow from my cousin when I have to have an appointment to make. When I see my brother being so responsible as a father and loving as a husband and that his daughter wakes up and feel so love. When I chat with my sister and see that the good Lord has been so good to her in all ways and more. When I see my sister Liza, receiving the favor from the Lord, had been given the opportunity to make the wrongs right and has been set free from religion too. When I see my father no longer a drunkard but making amends to how he acted in the past. When I see my boyfriend growing in his career, slowly receiving the answers to his prayers and receiving favor from God and men. When I see my nephews and niece growing up no longer like we used to have. When I see my family in perfect health and beginning to enjoy life that was once taken away from them. When I am so connected to the heart of God and to be so assured that I am His forever love.

All these gives so much tranquility in my ones chaotic heart. All these are answers to my prayers thirty years ago.

As I was walking today, my heart smiles that radiates outwardly. It’s like the whole universe smiled back at me. The clouds of witnesses cheering me on. The angels in heaven claps in unison. The Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit has been with me all along.

Today, I can’t help but thankful to the God I called when I was still a child and still the same God who hears me prayed, who see me cries, who laughs when I’m happy, my ever present God.

God is forever faithful and that’s what makes today called beautiful.

“And I will receive you; and I will be a Father to you; and you shall be my sons and daughters, saith the Lord Almighty. 2 Cor. 2:18”

Thank You Jesus

I wake up so at peace and feeling grateful over what God has done. He has been my God of surprise, working behind the scene for my good. Before His scene came out from the open, I saw me crying the day I reached home. I dropped my bag and cried why. Why do I have a hard time understanding what I am doing? Why did I fail the QA’S and the trainor? Why did the people who did not profess God as their Lord made it to the top? Why are the drunkards and the promiscuous made it to be number one? Why I was always the last?

The truth is, it is always at home, in the simplicity of my old foam, purple teddy bear, and dirty pillow that I can simply be the real me. I blurted everything that I felt at that moment. I asked Jesus all the why’s because I know that when I get to heaven, I will not be so concern about the why’s. His presence must be so overwhelming and paradise must be so beautiful. But for now, I am living here on earth where there is a genuine spiritual battle. I ate my tears in the quest for all the why’s? I tagged Him to be so unfair and I can’t accept that I did not make it. I appeared to be so composed in the office, holding all the tears deep within but my heart cried louder than the cry of a hungry child. In all my whinings and murmurings like a little child, I found myself saying that at the end of the day, His throne remains unmovable despite my groaning. His rulers aren’t threatened by my why’s. Having fully known that He knows the whereabouts of my heart, I slept in the knowledge that the next day will be my last day in the company of which I started to love.

I woke up having bulging eyes, ready to  accept that the end is over. I reported to work with so much peace. My mind says it’s over but my heart says differently as well. In the natural, wherever I look, I know I missed it. Then my team mates were called and came back in a jovial mood.

Then my turn. I went ready. I just know that I will accept my defeat gracefully. I think others were thinking too that I can’t make it. They saw how I performed too slow and what a slow learner I was. I was even surprised over how hard I had to catch up.

But I was caught with a surprise. My trainor looked at me and said,

“I don’t know but I have a soft spot for you and I just want to see you in the floor. You have no attitude problem and when you enter the room, you lightened the room. Congratulations, you are endorsed.”

I wanna cry like there is no tomorrow. Unknown to me, even before the endorsement took place, the Lord has already been working behind the scene for me. And because what I see is just too limited, I questioned the One who sees the end from the beginning.

“To the Lord, I am a little child. I asked. I cried. I smiled. I questioned. I grumbled. I pouted. Because to me, He is not my Boss. He is my Father. He is my best friend. He is my constant companion. I cried to Him. I laugh with Him. I boldly speak about Him and for the most part, He works behind the scene to protect me.”

The place where I am is so challenging. Their beliefs and philosophy in life is so different from me. Christians who are in my place hide behind the locker, scared to tell about Jesus. It’s easier to join in than to stand up and make the difference.

But I just know, that the way I conduct my life in the workplace reflects the ONE I worship and love. I tell them about His love and I trust that He will be the one who will touch their hearts.

The Jesus I know is not just the Jesus written in the Book but a Living God who touches human hearts.

Thank you so much Lord.

Happiness Is Our Choice

It was one funny afternoon and I joyfully went to the office with a smile and a song in my heart. I sat quietly, doing what I am suppose to do when all of sudden I receive a not so happy SMS from a disgruntled person who cannot be happy when one is actively happy. I read it and I don’t find it comforting much encouraging. My first thought was, can she never be happy to see me enjoying life despite the not so enjoyable circumstance that’s going on? My flesh wanted to kick back and lash back and my fingers wanted to find the right words to just type on my keypad and say my right to explain myself. But as I was thinking about it, I realized, why would I allow the unhappiness of someone robbed off on me and eventually I will be like that someone is. Wy would I allow the meanness of someone to slide with me when I have so many reasons to smile and laugh and enjoy life. So I looked at my phone, delete the unnecessary messages and begin to hear encouraging messages from Terri Savelle Foy that will inspire me to reach my goals and dreams. I recall God’s Word for me saying that He is the Lord my God twice and savor how He loved me. I thought of how God heals me from having no voice to having my voice back plus my throat is completely healed, I just know it.

Well, the unlikely message I received did not affect me as much as it affect me in the past. it did not robbed off my joy. It did not diminish my thankful heart. God is good and no matter how people will behave in front of me, whether they are good or bad, it really doesn’t matter anymore. As for me, I am fully satisfied in my heart and I will be making the right choice which I am the only one who is in the position to choose – I choose to be happy.

You too can make the right choice by remembering His goodness instead of being swallowed by how unhappy the people around you are.

Have a happy day everyone.